Thamriyell

Where Did The Videos Go For Like A Week???

Added 2020-10-15 05:29:43 +0000 UTC

Its been about a week since I posted something last on the Patreon & YouTube Channel, and there is a reason behind it too.

Up to the Thursday video post on YouTube, I've been having a rough week with streaming and feeling like I was falling behind a little bit. Part of it was the games I was streaming being boring to watch. Others was my bad ability to announce the stream times. And then finally it was just one of those tough weeks where I couldn't relax at all, causing me to be all tense during the streams. There were various factors that affected my streaming performance, but my stupid brain boiled it down to be just being a failure and that ate away at me mentally. I was feeling like I was failing the Thamily ;-;

On Friday was my Birthday (October 9th) and while I tried to have it be like any regular day, the community, the Thamily, has showered me with so much love and support on that day, it completely did a 180 degree flip to my confidence. I started feeling better mentally and emotionally, and basically had this streaming high where everything felt like it fell into the right place. I was finally able to feel like I was good enough again.

Aside from actively streaming, I was also focusing more and more on a new Halloween Avatar that I was trying to perfect. I basically ended up staying up 2-3 nights in a row to try and create something that would really surprise both the Patrons and Twitch viewers. Goal achieved, but it also left me feeling sick and having major headaches to the point where I couldn't do anything at all over on Tuesday. But I'm feeling much better now and am finally able to jump back into producing more and more videos on the channel. I'll try to mix videos up here and there between VRChat and other streams.

Just wanted to talk to y'all about what's been going on lately. Hope my message comes off well and looking forward to spamming Patreon with more and more videos >:D

Tham ♥