Gold Reward

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This is the last page of the revised and corrected reboot, for now. From the next time an unedited part will start, which will then reconnect to the reboot.

Unfortunately I was unable to give my best in this August

but now I have to say the reason, my father, once he returned home, never recovered, on the contrary, he continued to lose weight and feel weak and so the final surgery he had to do was canceled, because he would have died if he did not recover weight (he has lost 17 KG so far) and strength, and unfortunately the heart can't do it.

His veins have narrowed and his heart is struggling, he no longer eats, no longer walks and has a paralyzed arm, in a short time he became 100% disabled. Needless to tell you how shocked I am. He is not even more lucid, at certain moments he does not understand where he is and what is happening because oxygen does not reach the brain.

He is now in the hospital but they warned me and my mom that he has little left to live, one or two weeks.

I am aware that one of my parents is about to die and I am very scared and confused.

With a clear mind my mom and I are organizing things ...

he will go to a clinic that accompanies people to their final days with palliative care that aims to improve the quality of life of the sick in the last stages of an incurable disease, through the prevention and relief of suffering, physical, psychological and spiritual.

This they advised us at the hospital, where they can no longer do anything.

We await the phone call of his transfer and then, his last days begin.

I do not intend to interrupt my work, it also serves me psychologically, but as you know I am now like this, in this situation of anguish and sadness ... and with fibromyalgia that accompanies me also pain.

I confirm that in September I will open some commissions, but I apologize in advance for the non-programmable expectations and dates.

Maybe I'm not ready because I didn't expect my father to leave at 76, since all my grandparents and uncles were over 90, we Italians are long-lived, or at least once it was like that ... before all the trash that we breathe and eat in this age of pollution and consumerism.

My grandfather passed away at 97, August 25th would be his 100th birthday and I think he would have celebrate, if he hadn't broken his leg three years ago (which went into thrombosis). He never got sick of him in his life!

Since I was a child I have always seen self-sufficient elderly people up to 90 years, I assure you.

But lately I have realized that the quality of life has dropped, we struggle more, we take more drugs, we are stressed, we breathe pollution.

I would love to go back to the simple and natural life of yesteryear, for our body and mind, and I pray that our governments understand and help us, and help this world.

I personally am not actively on social media because they made me feel bad and always have a headache.

Sorry, I'm digress ...

But precisely, since I'm not on social media this is the only blog I have, and instead of making "stories" on instagram or twitter (like the influencers does) TO ANYONE, I only talk to you because you are my patrons, I cut myself this space to communicate the work in progress with those who support it, and if the work in progress is influenced by important reasons, I say it, as anyone would say to his employer.

I don't know if I have made myself clear but I hope so, if my dad's illness affects my performance, I can't keep it a secret. Because my work is a work of heart and mind, of inspiration and creativity, and what happens in my private life can make it heavier or more difficult.

But not all artists are like that, so I really envy and admire those who can manage this, keep inside problems and work and produce well anyway. These people have super powers for me, I admire them very much and I would like to be like them!

V.