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Full Video - 🌸さみしさと、少しだけのごほうび (A Little Loneliness, A Small Bonus)

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(2025-04-29)

本当に長らくお待たせしてしまって、ごめんなさい。

大切に育てていたハムスターのズッビ（zzubi）が突然天国へ旅立ってしまい、予告していた動画の編集にまったく手をつけることができませんでした。

こうして皆さんに再びご挨拶できるまでに、6日もかかってしまって…申し訳ない気持ちでいっぱいです。

ズッビは、ひとり暮らしの私が寂しさを感じるとき、部屋の片隅で静かに、そしてかわいく、私にたくさんの幸せをくれた、本当に大切で愛おしい存在でした。

少し前に事故で体調を崩してしまったのですが、少しずつ回復していたところ、私の手の中で最期を迎えることになりました。

昨夜は、ズッビの大好きだったおやつやふかふかのベッドを一緒に入れて、きれいに、丁寧に埋葬してきました。

あまりに辛くて、気持ちを整えるのに時間がかかってしまい、ご報告が遅れてしまいました。本当にごめんなさい。

本当は今月の最後にフル映像で皆さんにお会いするつもりだったのですが、まだ心の整理がつかなくて、最後まで編集を終えることができませんでした。

それでも、ずっと待っていてくださった皆さんに少しでもお返ししたくて、短めのボーナス映像を先にお届けすることにしました。

今回の映像は合計8分23秒で、

以前お見せしたビーチでの騎乗位の映像の水平構図バージョンとは少し異なる角度、

そして私がゆらゆらと腰を振るシーン、

さらに一人称視点の騎乗位シーンを含んだ内容になっています。

最近はTodomooさんが中心のコラボ動画が続いていたので、

「私のソロ映像を待っていてくれた方がいるかもしれない…」という気持ちで、今回は私だけが登場する構成にしてみました。

短い映像ですが、心を込めて作りましたので、少しでも皆さんの気持ちに届けばうれしいです…💗

そして明日は、今後公開予定の中から、Todomuさんとのコラボ動画の残り映像（約20分）のプレビューをアップする予定です。

本当は今月中にお見せしたかったのですが、今はもう少しだけ心を整える時間が必要で…きっと4月の最初の本編映像としてお届けできると思います。

長い文章を最後まで読んでくださって、そして静かに待っていてくださって、本当に本当にありがとうございます。

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I’m truly sorry for keeping you waiting so long.

My beloved hamster, zzubi (ズッビ), suddenly passed away, and I simply couldn’t bring myself to edit the video I had promised.

It took me six full days just to return and say hello again… and I’m filled with nothing but apology.

zzubi was such a loving and precious presence in my life. Whenever I felt lonely living alone, they would quietly stay by the corner of my room and make me feel happy just by being there.

Not long ago, zzubi had an unexpected accident and started to fall ill. They were slowly recovering, but in the end, they passed away in my hands.

Last night, I gently buried them with their favorite snacks and soft bedding, with all the love I could give.

It’s been so hard, and I needed time to collect my emotions. That’s why it took me so long to come and talk to you. I’m truly sorry.

Originally, I had planned to greet you with a full-length video at the end of this month, but I couldn’t finish editing it with my heart feeling so heavy.

Still, because you waited so kindly, I wanted to offer something — so I prepared a short bonus clip for you first.

This new video is 8 minutes and 23 seconds long.

It includes a slightly different angle of the riding scene on the beach you saw before (a horizontal composition),

a softly swaying hip motion,

and finally, a first-person riding scene.

Since Todomu has been the main focus in most of the recent collab videos,

I wondered if some of you may have been missing me a bit… and I really wanted to give you something that’s just me this time.

It’s short, but I made it with a lot of care. I truly hope it reaches you, even just a little… 💗

Tomorrow, I’ll upload a preview of the remaining collab footage with Todomu (about 20 minutes).

I had originally hoped to share it before the end of the month, but I still need a little more time to recover — so it’ll likely become the first main video of April.

Thank you so much for reading all the way to the end, and for waiting so quietly. I truly, truly appreciate it.

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정말 오래 기다리게 해서 죄송해요.

제가 너무나 소중하게 키우던 햄스터 쮸삐(zzubi)가 갑작스럽게 세상을 떠나버려서, 예고드렸던 영상 편집을 도저히 손댈 수가 없었습니다.

이렇게 다시 인사를 드리는 데에 무려 6일이나 걸려버렸어요… 너무 미안한 마음뿐이에요.

쮸삐는 제가 혼자 살며 외로움을 느낄 때, 제 방 한켠에서 조용히, 그리고 귀엽게 저를 행복하게 해주던, 정말 감사하고 사랑스러운 존재였어요.

얼마 전 갑작스러운 사고로 몸이 안 좋아지기 시작했지만 다행히 조금씩 회복하고 있었고, 그러던 중 결국 제 손 안에서 마지막을 맞이하게 됐습니다.

어젯밤, 쮸삐가 좋아하던 간식들과 포근한 베딩을 함께 넣어 곱고 정성스럽게 묻어주고 왔어요.

그동안 너무 힘들고 슬퍼서, 마음을 추스르느라 여러분께 인사드리는 것도 많이 늦어졌어요. 진심으로 죄송합니다.

원래는 이번 달 마지막 풀영상으로 인사드리려 했지만, 감정이 가라앉지 않아서 준비하던 영상을 끝까지 편집하진 못했어요.

그래도 오래 기다려주신 여러분께 작게나마 보답하고 싶어서, 짧은 보너스 영상을 먼저 준비해보았습니다.

이번 영상은 총 8분 23초 분량으로,