ELSTAR Idol Dance Event + End of 2024 Diary

It's a limited event~ so might as well make some memories! Please don't share it anywhere outside of here otherwise I will remove the videos and it will be dropbox download links only

Each dance has three different camera angle's (I think) 😆 The event is strange but its oddly unique and satisfying....

Kou ⬇️

I think my favourite is Alter Crown for Kou 😋

Special edit just for Kou~

Takumi ⬇️

My Lu (Uke) ⬇️

Akumi ⬇️

For full art work pieces I might be a bit slow or fall behind so I apologize in advance! Studies just started and i'm struggling to manage work, study, play, and art all together...

Lastly... I have another outfit for Takumi, if you want to see the dances in that oufit let me know~

Old art pieces I commissioned a really long time ago~ I'm comfortable sharing them here~

⬆️ This piece was drawn by my ex 🥲 it's still one of my favourite pieces to this day, I used to think she would be the one forever, but I guess as time goes on some people change in ways that compromise just can't fix/help

⬇️ Takumi trampoline~

Takumi

As for the smol diary part... lately I've been wondering what the future looks like long term, its very hard for me to imagine what I will be doing 2-5 years from now/onwards. My dream is still the same, which is to move to Japan and work for a Western tech company, but the pathway to that seems very long road ahead. My current studies if I can do it well enough is another 3 years.... I want to find a girlfriend/commited relationship but after my last ex I still think i'm not ready yet. Long distances relationships never really work out... and nowadays I feel like we're living in a very loner society, no one wants to be in a relationship, no one reaches out and so on....

Before the end of this year I don't really have any plans, I think i'm playing too much Elsword though, but I don't have much passion for much else. Art is here and there~ I wish I could make a living off nsfw commissions but I think my style is too simple and won't be worth that much.

To add to the previous paragraph regarding work and future career stuff, I FEEL like im not suitable to be a employee.. a word opposite to entrepreneur. I think the way to success in life is to be your own boss, and not to work for others. But I daydream about what might suit me... what kind of business, again just like above, a dream business is just drawing nsfw art or maybe being an entertainer. But the line between nsfw artist and being a content creator can be very blurry.... not everyone is comfortable with certain topics.

I guess i'll keep fumbling along for now. Thanks again to those who support month to month without any breaks, I really appreciate it~