Thank you so much (sorry, it's not porn)

I just wanted to take a moment and say a sincere thank you to all you generous patrons. I don't honestly think words are capable of expressing just how much I appreciate all of you, whether you're pledging a dollar, or thirty. The fact is, you've collective given me an opportunity that very few people ever get to enjoy, to be creative for a living. And while I will admit, at times, I wish I could write more serious stuff, the fact that I can write at all and people are willing to support me is more than most ever get the chance to do.

Before I started writing smut, I was unemployed for almost three years. Despite spending hours each day applying and reapplying for jobs in my area, in all that time, I got one interview. I was completely dependant on the mercy of my family, and I felt like I was only dragging them down. It was a dark time in my life... I wouldn't say I was sincerely suicidal, but there were a couple times where I found myself considering how I could do it in such a way that it wouldn't hurt those around me (It's pretty much impossible, in case you were wondering. Even if they never find out for certain you killed yourself, your absence has the same effect. DON'T FUCKING DO IT.).

I don't honestly know why I decided to try writing porn, but when Daddy's Home took off I was completely taken by surprise. I always liked to think of myself as a writer, but all I ever actually wrote were RPs. The first chapters of Daddy's Home were the first actual stories I wrote in a long time. It took off like a rocket, and took me with it. It was a crazy ride, and I loved it. I started this patreon and it went from $0 to $5 to to $280... It was glorious, and I dared to dream it would only continue to climb, until I could actually make enough money to live off of. 

And then... Daddy's Home came to an end. Over the next year, I kept losing patrons left and right. I started the musings and that didn't go over well, the patreon commissioners finally lost patience with me, and reality just kept fucking with me, keeping me from working. I was afraid. I was worried that Daddy's Home was my peak, that I was a one-hit wonder and would never be able to recapture that kind of success. I'd thrown everything into this crazy writing thing and if it failed I would have been back to being a jobless, worthless parasite. 

But now, things are actually getting better again! I'm on new pills so I don't feel like garbage all the time (just, like, 20% of the time, these days).
The patreon's regrown over the last year. This most recent pledge just pushed the total up over $200 again, which finally made me realize that the situation might not be completely hopeless after all! I feel like I've been subconsciously holding my breath for ages and I just realized can breathe again. 

I owe everything to you, my faithful patrons. Without you here, supporting me, encouraging me... I might not be here. My thanks especially those of you who've stuck with me all this time, through all the experimentation, the changes, the weirdness, and the unproductive months. But words are cheap. The best way to show my gratitude is action, the best reward I can give you is more of what you're here for: that sweet, sweet smut. So I'm going to bring you more beautiful babes, more handsome hunks, more sweet seduction, and more raunchy romance. I'm not perfect. I can't promise anything concrete. There will be times where I simply can't make it happen. But swear, I will work harder than ever to make sure you know how much I appreciate you.

Sorry to ramble on like that, but congratulations on making it through that wall of text!