alxr34

Got something on my mind...

Added 2021-05-07 13:09:54 +0000 UTC

Hey guys, how are you doing?

I'm doing great today. Slept only 2 hours last night (my schedule is a mess, and I'll probably need a nap this afternoon :P) but somehow I feel fully rested and I'm currently working on the light and shading on page 17. It is looking great, and I can't wait to release it later today.

But here's the thing... I saw this message this morning on the exit survey. And it's been bugging me... so I decided to tell you about it.

I'm not mad. I'm not even sad or hurt for what it said. I know exactly where this sentiment came from... But I just want to assure you guys, this is as far from the truth than it is possible. I'm not making excuses... I am not coasting on your money, playing games. I am working as hard as it is humanly possible for me at the moment. I wish I could give you guys more than what I've been producing in the last few months. I do not like feeling this sluggish. But this is what it is and I am sincerely sorry about that.

You guys know I've been struggling with production issues for months now. Between my health issues, my father's and uncle's death, the covid, I've been running on fumes. Creatively, I feel almost empty and been feeling like I've been telling the same story for the last 3 years. And sadly, creativity is not something one can force himself through. I wish I could better explain all that is needed to draw new stuff days after days. I do not feel depressed, nor burned out... but I think I need a break to recharge. This last year and a half has been hard on all of us. We all need social interactions and a vacation :P

All that being said, after the forced hiatus last week, I've had a great week... As I said before, I'll be releasing the new page later today, and I have a really fun idea for a pin-up I'll be working on in my spare time this weekend.

I'd also like to tell you how grateful I am to have you guys during this darker time. You guys have been extremely supporting, and your PM messages, comments and emails have been absolutely essential for me to get through it.

See you guys soon!
Alx