[Major Announcement] Moving on.

Howdy y'all.

Those of you who have been following my work and my crowdfunding campaigns for a while are probably aware that I have been battling burnout for multiple years now. I'm sure many of you have noticed that I seem to have periods of productivity, and periods where I am heavily stymied by my burnout. I've been trying to fight this, basically as far back as 2018, with limited success.

After all this time, ive had to come to a very hard decision. I cannot do art as my career anymore. I don't have any gas left in the tank, and I cannot keep treading water like this. I am deeply unhappy with making art, and my monetization of art has utterly destroyed my relationship with my own creativity. Even on the best of days, even when i have an IDEA that i WANT to draw, I have to fight through intense, painful anxiety every step of the way. I feel alienated and disconnected from myself, my desires, my sexuality, my passion. I've tried my hardest to push through, I've tried touching grass and taking breaks and nothing works. I cannot do this anymore. I cannot handle having something so important to me as my own creativity, my relationship with art, cause me so much pain.

• WHAT IS THE PLAN GOING FORWARD?

After discussing options with my wife Carbonoid, I have decided that I am going to attempt to transition into a career in Body Piercing. I am choosing this path for a number of reasons. Firstly, it is a non-creative field, where im not going to be drawing, or designing things, so the part of my brain that has been overworked in a creative field for over 10 years now, can finally rest. Secondly, it is a job that can effectively utilize the hand eye coordination and manual dexterity that I already have from my time making art. And thirdly, since Carbonoid works in tattooing, they are able to help me navigate this transition period.

I am not able to immediately switch over to such a job quite yet however, as I still need to get a work permit in order to hold a Canadian job. It is going to take an indeterminate amount of time to get that, so in the meantime i will be focusing on training in piercing, and tying up loose ends.

• WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO PATREON/SUBSTAR, COMMISSIONS ETC?

As I said above, I cannot get this new job immediately. It is going to take at least a few months to secure the work permit, to my understanding. To that end, I will not be shutting down my Patreon/Subscribestar etc until I have the work permit confirmed. I will be finishing up outstanding commissions, and possibly taking on a few new ones just to tide things over if needed.

Any support on here is helpful to me and our family during this transition, and I will be trying my best to update things with a little more art before finally closing things down once a work permit has been secured. If you don't want to continue subscribing to my work, I completely understand, and I think you for the support you have me up until now. If you DO want to continue supporting me during this transition, then i offer you my deepest thanks. I have always been humbled by the generosity of my supporters. I'm sorry I could not make this work.

• ARE YOU EVER GOING TO DRAW AGAIN?

After the career transition is complete, I'm likely going to need to not even so much as think about drawing for a while. IDK how long. I hope not too long, but i cannot predict how much time i will need.

But I want to say that I am sure that one day, whether it's sooner or later, I will return to making, and posting, art. I just wont be doing it as a job.

• FINAL THOUGHTS

It is difficult to not feel like a failure. I tried to make this work as a career since about 2013. I made so many friends in this field. I met my wife through making porn! I have deeply loved making porn, and it has enriched my life in so many ways. It hurts me deeply that I could not make it work as a career, despite my best efforts. It hurts that work i love so much, has in recent years caused me so much pain.

Something I want to be clear about, is none of this has been fueled by the community of people who have loved and shared and supported my work all these years. I loved making art for you, I love so many of my clients who have shown me nothing but kindness. So many of you have been in my corner through some extremely tough times, and i cannot put into words how indebted i am to every single one of you who is reading this.

Thank you for everything.