Something I've also been mulling around is "What kind of artist do I want to be?"
Added 2024-05-27 21:56:18 +0000 UTCThings have been tough lately im not going to lie and the times where Ive been able to sit down and drawn unabated have been difficult. I know I could do the same old "Girl pose with text" but I want to grow and be better and I want you guys to expect more from me as well.
I want to get a little more complex but complexity doesnt make me as happy. You see my style how simple and cute it is and thats how I enjoy drawing. I start a simple pic or an idea but it doesnt make me "Happy" and its hard for me to push through, even if Im almost done with it. It's like.. I want my pics to have more depth and more story but I also dont enjoy drawing if it takes me too long or is too hard.
Like, I LOVE doing what I do, I love drawing girls insulting you or saying horrible things about you. Marrin was my breath of fresh air. I could do that and make a story out of it!
Lately It's been hard to do that becuase a lot of my ideas for the comic are non hentai and that's been a different creature entirely. "How to make non hentai look fun and creative" and nothing I do seems to look good, and thats one of the reasons my transition panels are so unfinished or non existant or why my comics have gotten shorter.
Like, I guess you could say I ONLY like hentai, its the only thing that makes me happy and drawing the crappy little doodles to get to the hentai was my way of just showing story but just drawing those and them not looking good also doesnt make me happy?
You know? Like if I have to do something I dont want to do it half assed.
So I'm in a cross roads as to how I want to grow, and while I struggle with this I end up just drawing nothing or at least nothing im proud of. I have a bunch of pics and comics that are 90% ready be put out but I need that little effort to finish.
I'm thinking about maybe hiring someone who is more of a Manga reader kind of guy to create me some story boards so my comics can be better, longer, and more expressive? Also take the load off my head so I dont need to feel pressured to make EVERY little idea?
And another thing is I COULD just pump out a bunch of pics of girls calling you bad words like a few other artists but I dont want to be that for everything, that was supposed to be my inbetween pics ideas. I have a few I started but rarely do I want to finish them, I know you guys will love them but I want to be happy doing it.
Lol and the worst part is the longer I sit here and mull over what I want and dont want starting the next pic just keeps getting harder to start.
So i'm sorry, as I wait and worry I see a lot of my subs dropping and it hurts my heart because I feel like I'm letting everyone down who came to me because they enjoyed my art. And I dont want to use that as an excuse to just "Make any old thing" that doesnt have the love and attention put into my old pics just to retain people.
I know im just kind of rambling right now but I enjoy talking to you guys and I love your comments. What I WANT to do is more Marrin stuff and work on more complicated poses and learn how to draw backgrounds but those are the longest things and takes more time. I'll think about it some more
I lost a good friend of mine recently so my heart hasnt been in a happy place so I'm just voiding out for a second, but Ill try and finish my unfinished stuff to get it out of the way so its not looming over me like a Lumbering Dinosaur lol
Anyways, just wanted to let you guys know my thoughts lately. I love you all so much and youre all so dear to my heart, I'll finish some stuff soon!
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I felt like Marrin and her comics were a natural evolution of what you were already making, and I don't think it's an understatement to say that everyone who subscribes to you really enjoyed those, so if you want to move to a more comic/manga format, that would be killer.
0p3n54uc3
2024-06-03 18:09:41 +0000 UTCAlso perfectionism is a sign of its close cousin, the autism spectrum. It's very difficult to get diagnosed, I haven't had any luck yet myself, but I feel where you're coming from and that's a big reason why. Of course I know nothing about whether or not you have pursued this already, but if you haven't it might be helpful to get officially diagnosed and learn strategies for coping.
0p3n54uc3
2024-06-03 18:07:08 +0000 UTCHave you considered that you might have ADHD? That could be why you're having a hard time focusing too, in addition to not feeling creatively satisfied.
0p3n54uc3
2024-06-03 18:05:14 +0000 UTCI don't think there's anything wrong with drawing story driven comics that aren't any more complex detail wise than your normal drawings
Pangean
2024-05-29 21:43:15 +0000 UTCNot sure if it'll help, but you could take a look at TG Weaver's work, and see if that inspires? Very simple drawings, a good chunk done almost in MS Paint, but he conveys a lot of expression and personal dynamics and story in really easy ways that are a delight to read and look at :3 I know you can do it, just gotta keep trying ^ ^
tidalechoes
2024-05-29 04:15:51 +0000 UTC(3/3) If you were to pressure yourself to create something you don't like, you won't be happy, and ngl, you would probably stop completely, right? So yeah, please do what you wanna do, seriously ._. You can do it and you're gonna get better again :))) Btw, atleast I really enjoy Marrin stuff!!
Shinama
2024-05-27 23:53:12 +0000 UTC(2/3) Hiring someone seems like a very good idea, not just for the pieces you are working on, but maybe even to learn something yourself, which seems to be thing that you want rn (which is cool) :D Idk how much income we as a paying community generate, but if it's enough, then yeah, maybe you should look into that option :) I mean, there gotta be people who get paid per pic and stuff, so you might as well just test it out. It's not like you would be forced to do anything after that.
Shinama
2024-05-27 23:52:57 +0000 UTC(1/3 Comments are up to 1k chars max. for some reason) Your expectations when it comes to yourself are so high that they seem to be killing your productivity .-. You already are a great artist, you worry way too much :D Especially since with the quality you can draw in right now would already be enough to get the foot into any category you wanna draw in :) Like, you know you can draw "sweet", just that alone is such a big thing!
Shinama
2024-05-27 23:52:46 +0000 UTCWhile I personally love the basics of girl calls you p***, I really just like your art in general so waiting for more is no problem for me, getting to see teasing tots will keep me supporting for a long time (sorry for your loss as well)
Jinxman
2024-05-27 22:03:42 +0000 UTCIt’s perfectly okay to take time to figure out what you want to do. If it’s for putting out the best content you can do, we don’t mind waiting so you can experiment!
.A.
2024-05-27 21:59:48 +0000 UTC
