Nemmys

Hi everyone pt.1

Added 2025-09-23 19:48:21 +0000 UTC

It feels strange to write here again after such a long silence. I want to be honest with you. The truth is, I went through a very heavy time. I fell into a deep depression where even the simplest things like getting out of bed, cooking food or taking a shower felt impossible. My life was covered in fog and I just didn’t have the strength to post or create.

For a long time I thought maybe I was just lazy or making excuses. But when doctors confirmed that my condition is real and serious, I finally started to believe myself. That was the point when I decided to try to get better. Now I’m in therapy with someone who really understands what I’m going through. It gives me hope, even if the path is not easy.

The only place where I felt a bit stronger all this time was the gym. Training became my small escape, the one thing that made me feel alive and gave me a little energy. Step by step I’m learning to enjoy small things again, and it feels like the first signs of light are showing up.

I also need to be honest with you about something else. My financial situation right now is very difficult. Patreon for me is not only about sharing photos, it’s also a way to support my therapy and treatment. Every bit of support here means much more than you can imagine.

I am so thankful to everyone who stayed with me, and I will be happy to welcome back those who want to return or join me now. I cannot promise to be perfectly regular, but I promise to be real and to share a part of myself with you.

Thank you for being here. It means the world to me!!💙