Things and Stuff! Stuff and Things!

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Hello, Patrons! Notice my ducks. They're in a row. Neat, orderly, obedient.

You may have also noticed no audio last week! Skipped it to sort out the ducks, y'see. Had to whip them into shape.

At this point I'm just leaning into the Betty Boop thing...

What I've been doing with that short interlude:

• Planning loads of summer content

• Arranging more script commissions

• Vetting current commissions

• Building a sortable audio database (fancy spreadsheets! ooh! aah!)

• ...and a sortable idea database (for commissioning more patron requests!)

• Corralling my day job schedule to make room for steady audio production (Someone is taking her vacation time for once! Who could that be, I wonder?)

• Recording!

• Setting up a proper production schedule again

• why is this not letting me out of list format

• patreon

• c'mon man

• ffs why are bulleted lists broken now

oh thank god

Anyway, it's been a lot!

But I also have twelve scripts in the can right now, all just waiting for edits + sfx + post production. I'm hoping to record at least one thing pretty much every day for the next two weeks.

While I'm working hard on getting a lot of audio recorded, I'm also trying to keep my channel schedule nice and flexible. I don't know exactly which audios will be coming out when yet, but there is a roadmap of sorts for what I want to put out over the next several months, with plenty of room for substitutions, filling requests, etc. I'll be feeling my way along, but not totally flying by the seat of my pants.

To that end, let's look ahead! While the schedule is nebulous, here are some of the scripts I've got on my to-do list! With thumbnails, even!

And upcoming sequels...!

There will be lots of other stuff sandwiched in between these; I want to keep room open for new scripts that appeal to me as they come out, and I'm aiming for a slightly better genre balance in the final release calendar. (There's an awful lot of fantasy up there! And I promised more slice-of-life this year!)

But I hope some of those ideas whet your appetites! I know I'm certainly feeling much less frazzled with proper plans in place. ^^;

And now, personal stuff disclosure time! I have been seriously struggling with planning and follow-through since starting a new med back in April. During that burnout break, I saw my doctor and -- once I had regaled her with tales of The Horrors and my rapidly unraveling mental health -- she said, "Ooookay, let's try something new, shall we?"

So, good news! Modern medicine is a miracle! The new med is the first thing that has successfully treated my OCD to any meaningful degree. My brain has been quiet for the first time since I escaped the womb and scuttled across the delivery room to bite the doctor.

On those rare days when I've missed a dose, it comes roaring back, and suddenly I realize just how bad it was. Every time I'm, "damn bitch, you lived like this?" @ myself.

The bad news: apparently I've been powered by such a high level of anxiety for SO LONG I don't quite know how to function without it yet.

The adjustment period has been paradoxically rough, even as the OCD itself has improved. I'm having to retrain my brain to do things in totally new ways and draw from a different internal power source. Needing to poke, prod and motivate myself instead of letting intrusive thought spirals of existential crises do it for me is...weird.

Even talking about it feels hilariously absurd on its face. "You don't understand! That was a load bearing mental illness!!!"

I'm sort of getting used to it, but it's an ongoing learning process, and I don't know how long it will take to find equilibrium. Hopefully I'll find a happy medium between, "Problem? AAAAAH" and "lol what problem?" bc it's been very hard to tackle tasks at either extreme.

I think my ability to manage stuff will still be off kilter for awhile longer yet, so I apologize in advance for all the times my brain is going to stop working the way I want it to in the near future.

Alright, I think that about wraps it up! I'll be back later in the week with early access and maybe some other goodies too!

xoxo,

Velvet