Hey everyone

I feel like I owe you all a blog. This month has been hard, really really hard.

At the start of the month I was slammed with work and I was selling at the Rose Bowl, helping a friend of mine with their shop, doing a ton of resale. Then my world came to a screeching halt. By my world, I mean my sweet Bug got very very sick. My little dog was diagnosed with cancer late last summer, and I have been spoiling her rotten and giving her all of the best meds, but her tumor has grown and I've known her timing was near. Last Thursday I could tell she wasn't feeling well. Friday morning she was flat out sick, trembling and I gave her painkillers and laid with her all day. Saturday was horrible. She couldn't stand, she was weak with pain and miserable, and I spent the whole day crying and caring for her. Heartbroken but accepting, my boyfriend and I brought her to the vet to be put to sleep that evening. She was laying on the floor barely moving, but as soon as the vet walked in, she stood up and weakly walked over to him, wagging her tail. The vet looked at us like we were making it all up, and said he'd like to try to give her a cortisone shot because she might just be having back/arthritis problems. I thought he was crazy, but if he felt like there was a chance, I wanted to give it to her. He said to contact him in 48 hours if she was not getting any better. The next morning she was the same, and then by the afternoon, she stood up and walked. By 2pm, she brought me her tennis ball to play. I couldn't believe it, she had literally been on death's door the day before. She is acting 100% now.

Unfortunately, I think the cortisone shot is only a band-aid for a bigger problem which I know will eventually overcome my dog, but I'm so glad she is happy again. I have been so consumed with her, that I apologize if I haven't been as active on here as I should be.

I felt HORRIBLE leaving Coco, but my trip to Florida, and onto Belize started on Weds. I hugged and kissed her goodbye, and my boyfriend is spoiling her rotten until I return.

Florida has been nice! I've visited my 3 of my 4 siblings, my parents, I've had a few shoots, and tomorrow I head to Ft Lauderdale to begin my journey to Belize. I think I've spoken about Belize in the past, but a group of model-ographers and I organized it to have a fun vacation together and just make art. We will be shooting each other, going to cool locations.. I'm psyched. This trip was very expensive and its taken months of patreon costs to really cover it all, but I'm so excited. I think it is going to help me grow a lot as an artist. Thank you so much for helping me make this goal happen.

*hugs to you all*

If my updates are bad or nonexistent until Feb 4, please don't hate me. I have no idea what sort of internet connection I will have while there. I'll be on it as soon as I get back home!

xoxo
Carlotta