December MH Check In

Thanks for sharing, that must have been a tough one to do. But you're tougher, and you have a lot of support ❤

Bells you’re absolutely amazing and such a strong woman..... thank you for posting something like this..... I love you lots🖤🖤

Hey Bells, I finally had a chance to watch this and I just wanna give you a big hug ma'am. As much as we enjoy you sharing the good times with us, we're also here for all the hard times too. I really hope that your dad is doing a little better and so are you. Things have a way of working themselves out and we'll be with you for all it. Love ya ma'am 🧡🧡

Whistler45

So much love to you

you should never feel the need to apologize Bells. you've been trough such a wild ride, a ride that keeps on going. I cross my fingers and buttcheeks for your dad's recovery and i really belive he will make it trough a second time. by the way, you are always cute... you listening? ALWAYS cute, and im glad you got a proffesional cuddle buddy like moose to help you out. thanks for sharing this with us nerds bells. i love you! <3

Bells I love you and thank you for sharing, sometimes you just gotta let things off your chest. You are a strong individual. You didn’t have to share or think you owe us an explanation about your personal life. We will alway love and support you. I too have lost family during the holidays. My grandpa was on his way home for Christmas (truck driver). And on the 12/23/2007 he had a heart attack at a rest stop only an hour away. And I can also sympathize on how scary it is having someone who gets seizures. My little sister 19 has epilepsy, but hasn’t had an episode in a while, but it was really scary when she had her 1st big one and found out she had it. 🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡💛💛🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡

Hey Bells First of I just wanna say thank you for letting us in on your life personal and all ! Second I’m so proud of you because not only are you being honest and open, your being truthful and being Real ! For many people like myself it can be hard to share somethings, But to be able to openly talk on how your emotions and your mind are really is crazy beautiful ! December was definitley a tough one for you bells I love you lots and I hope you know and you clearly know that this community is so behind every step you take an every move you make well be watching And supporting and loving you ! And Hey it’s okay to not be okay indeed An also Furbabies to the rescue ! ❤️ Much love Bells Thank you your Strong Powerful woman !

In whatever way we can be, I am confident this community will be there for you Bells. Everything happening can really bring a person down but please remember that courage is not being unafraid, but being afraid and doing it anyway. Every day you get up and do something, even a small thing, you are being incredibly courageous in the same amount that everyone here expresses how wonderful you are. Remember to keep your stick on the ice, and we're all in this together. *stick taps*

Bells I feel you on this! While I may just only be a fan of yours and the rest of the GP crew, I wish i could just reach out and give you the biggest hug! I lost my father 14 years ago to a very ugly fight with cancer and it still wrecks me. So when you saw me leave chat on new years eve things were hitting pretty hard this year. Just know that we are here for you should you need! Much love being sent your way and make sure the give yourself some downtime as well! Bryce

i am totally ok with that

Girls Play

Having not followed the channel as closely during the dark days of the last big "shuffle", I'd neglected to consider the anxiety that Nat's departure must have brought for some of you. I'm sorry to hear you in particular have been carrying this weight, and I hope the community has adequately shown that we're not here for any *one* person -- we're here for each and every one of you as individuals *and* for the dynamic that you all share. As for your dad, I'm very happy to hear that he's since recovered to some degree. I lost my own dad to cancer some years back, and though we weren't very close at all, the emotional distance wasn't quite enough to dull the pain entirely. If I can offer a single piece of advice on the matter, it's this: be at ease with your decisions; only then will you have the peace of mind to *be present* and enjoy the moments shared with friends and family. Trying to live some movie fantasy version of being happy and hopeful *all the time* is unrealistic and will build up anxiety around failing to meet that unreachable goal. Sometimes you will feel like looking forward with hope in your heart; that's good so long as that's *what you feel is right at that moment*. Sometimes you will feel like looking backward with sorrow; that's equally valid so long as that's *what you feel is right* to do. As is always the case in life, only when YOU are content with your decisions will things fall into place. So long as you are not harming yourself, *YOU are the only person who ever needs to be okay with how YOU are feeling*. Thank you for trusting us enough to share what's been on your mind. I wish you the best of luck in coping with everything that's been going on. Please remember your friends are always near and always willing to fight alongside you, no matter what. And please remember we love you and are also here for you no matter what, to whatever extent the gulf that is the internet will allow.

Nestor Custodio

Thank for trusting us enough to share these difficult times with us. You're a brave person. I've gone through a lot of what you have and I know what it is to be Not Ok. You have it figured out, just one day at a time, minute by minute. You've heard me say this before but it's worth saying again. We all get very protective of our loved ones during a time of need and we are always willing to go the extra distance for them. Make sure you take care of yourself first. Because if you break, you can't be there for your loved one. If you can't take care of yourself, seek help. Your friends can add a new perspective on things. Sending you and your family all of my best thoughts and wishes. Much Love.

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Matthew Allin

Bells I went thru a similar experience with my dad. I would like to send you a letter if you're ok with that. I know a lot of people get emotional about things so I don't want to upset you.

im so glad youre part of this community Bells, understand we are here for you always for your highs and lows just as you are for us ❤

I think so too, but that looming dread was really hard, especially after such a good year as a channel. Thank you for the kind words 🖤

Girls Play

I think the how people leave matters - the shadow of what happened before must have weighed on all of you. So Nat leaving for personal (Not channel related) reasons is important. Was sad to see her go, but understand why she had to go. Glad you are willing to share all of this. My brother has been trying to find a house to buy - and house buying/renting is a process. Thanks for sharing!!!!

Bells, your honesty is much, much appreciated. And a vlog like this, while perhaps not exciting or uplifting like others, is certainly something we accept and understand. We certainly would not expect you to put on a song and dance under these circumstances. This year has taken a toll on everyone and for you, gosh all that happening at once is definitely something that would break people of lesser character. But you Bells, is not that, quite the opposite. Fighting through all of this, both the hectically good stuff and the "perfect shitstorm" of the holidays and NOT buckling under that pressure... hell that deserves a life award. Your strength is incredible Bells and your heart is immense, to have the room and the energy to do this all at once. I certainly could not keep that up in your situation, the closest I have ever come to this personally was my grandmother, who was close to me, gradually getting worse over the years after a broken hip and dying about 6 years ago (and even then, my other relatives bore the brunt of the familial care). To have the strength to keep going and still give so much of yourself to us during all this, I would say that you are the strongest person that I know, both online and IRL. Im not joking even a little bit. I will instead give you a big hug (*hugs*) and say that I will walk beside you into the new year. We shall make this one better, no matter if it consents to it or not! I wish you all the strength and honour possible to wish. Take care of yourself my friend <3

Oops, posted that before I was finished! I also wanted to say thank you! <3 Thank you for being open and honest about all these things, I wish there was more I could do to help you through these troubles, but even if I can't do anything I'm really happy that you can share them with us <3 And thank you for talking about Natalie's departure, I've been really missing her the last month, and I know it must be hard to talk about so I really appreciate you sharing with us a bit of how you feel. And I know you worried, but you know now sweet girl, you never had to worry! Each of you girls is equally beautiful and amazing in your own way, I don't think anyone in today's Nerd Herd would leave just because one girl had to say goodbye, you're all too lovable <3 I wish I could give you a big hug over the internet! You got me crying with you by the end of the video! I'll just have to send you love and squishies via the comments section I guess <3 Love you bunches sweetie bean! <3 <3 <3

Bells, sweetie, you are NEVER less than cute! <3 You are such a sweet, loving caring, beautiful soul! I feel bad, because I don't pray as often as I ought to, but when I do I pray for you and your dad. My hopes are with you, that he can beat the odds a second time. Don't dwell on and worry about what might or might not happen too much, no one knows what the future will bring, All we can do is deal with what we have for today. <3

Never really knew the battles you were facing at the end of the year. The fact that this vlog was so candid about what’s been going on shows how much strength you really have. If 2020 has taught us anything, it’s that together, not only just as a community but as a family, we can persevere through life’s challenges. You’re not alone in your struggles. You have family, both blood and chosen, that will always catch you when you fall. And when you get back up, we’ll be right behind you cheering you on like we always do. Thank you for sharing what’s been going on and know we’ll be rooting for you from the bleachers. I love you, Bells.

Hey. Love you, sorry you are going through so much and are struggling. I know what some of it can be like. It's not easy. But you got to do your best to take care of yourself, eat, drink water, especially when it's difficult to get out of bed. I don't know if parental concern camaraderie will help, but to keep it short, cause I can't remember what I've said or haven't over the years, my mother's been going though a lot health wise over the years, and there have been times where she's been on life support and didn't know if she was going to make it. There's been times where she's not quite there mentally. There's been a lot. It's difficult sometimes. But we can't dwell too heavily on the what ifs, and the possible problems of the future. You got to hold onto the good news. And do your best to keep hope alive in your heart. I'm here if you wanna talk or anything. One last thing. You mentioned briefly about holding on to negativity of the past. I've noticed that about you a few times. I think, when things are a little settled down and you have time to focus on yourself it might be a good idea to try to find a way to let go of some of the past. I hope that's not weird to say. I hope things get better soon, and everything goes well < 3

Bells, I love you, for your honesty, for your bravery, and for just being you. I want to hug you until life gets better and everything can be rainbows and sunshine, because you have been through some tough shit recently, and you deserve the rest to be sunshine and rainbows. I've got no more words... I've been through some tough times, and know that sometimes, just putting one foot in front of the other is all you can do. We're here for you, Bells. I hope this comes off ok. The words sound great in my head, but not so much as I type them. Lol Take care of yourself, we'll be here for whatever. 😊.

You’ve soldiered through a very hard month in the midst of an already very hard year and being present at all is an achievement to be proud of. Checking in on mental health is so important and we appreciate your honesty. Wishing the best for your dad, your family, and you 💙 stay strong, GP and the nerd herd will be here

Tchaik

Thank you 🖤

Girls Play

December has really been a culmination of 2020. So much has happened it what seems like a very short year. It's a lot for anyone to handle, but I believe in your strength and know you got this :) I have always expressed how proud I am of how far GP has made it this year, which includes you. I know y'all have big plans with the new studio, but please don't burn yourselves out in the process! You know we support you without concessions, and you don't owe us anything! Take care of yourself and your family; we will always be there. <3

Garbuckle

Don’t worry I def felt all the love in you’re words! Thank you for your kindness and thinking of me 🖤🖤🖤

Girls Play

Thank you! Like I said a date at a time and I’m trying really hard to stay positive! 🖤🖤🖤

Girls Play

Bells my good friend I wish I could give you a hug after the shitty month for irl stuff has been. My month was going to be ok but my job gave me some bad news. And some good news with it. Ok the good news first. My job is still going and financially holding on with the new lockdown in the uk. Bad news now. My team that makes homeware is on furlough for the next month. Little bit of positive news. I'm still getting paid this month which is kinda cool. Bells you are handling bad situations with a degree of strength that should not be expected from anyone when shit like that happens. I would be able to get my care across better in voice chat or something maybe. I guess I'm a Gob on a stick like me mother. I suppose typing my care will have to do for now. I would be cheesy and say stay strong and keep a stiff upper lip but I honestly know how hard that is especially when you go through hardships like this. Send my prayers to gaia for your father and for you as well belladina mi dear. 2021 is hopefully going to be less of a colossal fucking cunt pardon my language than 2020 was. Bells your sadness genuinely affects me and I wish I could give you a hug. I wish virtual hugs could produce the same feeling because know that the whole nerd herd is behind you and cheering you on with virtual hugs and words. I'm sorry this is super long but I mean everything I have wrote here. Much love to you belladina mi dear.

I love how NONE of you are ashamed to just be honest. Honest about what you’re really feeling, sharing things we don’t know are going on even when all of you try to be happy and positive at the end of the day we’re all human we feel we hurt but I know that I’m somewhat knowing more and more about this community and I see that as such a loving caring supportive community everyone stands by y’all every step of the way. Praying everyone of you ladies make this year an even better year and Bells hoping your dad’s health gets better giving you all the best hugs and love❤️❤️❤️❤️