Jealous
Added 2017-11-27 00:09:16 +0000 UTCI am feeling jealous of the (appearance of) success and respect of another professional. And it's like.
Erika.
Sweetheart.
They are doing their own thing and it is reaching the audience who appreciates it.
That's not what you do. That’s not your audience.
I just.
I know I can do so much better than what I’m producing right now. I have actual stories I want to tell, stories with real heart and humor in them. I can do better than the formulaic comics I'm publishing and the Neutered Erika Moen Brand I play on Twitter.
I can do better.
I just can't do it right now.
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COMMENT REQUEST:
If you'd like to comment, please just share your own personal experiences with feeling jealous and inadequate. Please do not talk about me. I'm not fishing for reassurances or compliments about my work and I'll feel really, really uncomfortable if anyone tries to tell me nice things about myself or the things I've made in response to what I've shared honestly just now.
♥ Thank you for respecting my request to not talk about me! ♥
Comments
I feel so jealous and inadequate sometimes that is stops me from making anything to begin with. Then I feel worse. Then I spend a while beating up on myself for all the things I 'know' I should be doing, like spending more time on making stuff or more time connecting on social media. And at some point I'll decide everything I've ever made is 100% poop and that I'm 100% poop and the world is heading towards 100% poop so why does it even matter. Then I'll binge-watch a bunch of van life videos and fantasize about livin' on the road, carefree, and give up trying to make anything at all. And then that makes me sad because I'd still not be making anything, and also I wouldn't have a bathtub, so it's got to be an off-grid commune. Then it's commune vids > baby goat vids > general cute animals vids > feeling a bit better.
fred
2017-11-28 15:15:20 +0000 UTCFeeling jealous and inadequate feels like the story of my life sometimes. I'm almost 30, and I have no clue what I want to "do with my life". I feel like I'm barely getting through the basics of every day survival... there's nothing left in me to do anything important, or even interesting. It seems like my peers are all settled in to their careers and marriages and having children and buying houses.... and even though that kind of life isn't what I want, I feel like I'm lagging behind. On the other hand, I have had different kinds of experiences that many people would never imagine! We all have our own paths to walk!
Zena Darling
2017-11-28 02:48:42 +0000 UTC
