May 29, Thursday (Inking the blowjob comic)

Oh dang, I forgot to update yesterday! Rest assured, I was drawing the comic. 

Which I continued to do today. 

Progress has been a lot slower on this one because I keep being nervous to draw it? I'm really insecure about drawing dicks :| 

I KNOW, RIGHT. Completely ridiculous. 

...Or should I say... riDICKulous. Eh? EH??? 

The Kickstarter for the book is doing well! We're basically going up by $1,000 a day, which means an additional dollar to all my guest artists. Right now, at 39k, they're set to get the most hilarious (and appropriate, considering the subject matter I commission them to portray) of all rates, $69 a page. But we're super close to breaking through to 40k, and then it will be the significantly less hilarious $70 a page. http://www.kickstarter.com/projects/erikamoen/oh-joy-sex-toy-the-book 

On a more thinking-aloud note:
My friends keep encouraging me to drop down the OJST update schedule to once every two weeks, because I've been burning out pretty hard for a while now and the most obvious thing to blame is the stress I put on myself to get 4-6 pages of full color comics completed each week. Because it's my comic, I'm the boss, I can make the rules, why don't I just give myself a less punishing schedule? And true enough, there's many weeks where I finish a comic thinking "Well, that was the best I could do on time." and not "This is a Good Comic where I did a Good Job" This was especially made obvious to me when Lucy Bellwood gave me her guest comic for this week (http://ohjoysextoy.com/snakebite). It's everything that I'm TRYING to do with each OJST update: it's informative, super funny, bursting with personality, has excellent, creative cartooning... it's a Good Comic. Maybe if I did drop down to one comic every two weeks, I'd have more breathing room to really explore all the joke and layout options for a comic, instead of going with the first thing that comes to mind and racing to get it done in time. 

But when my friends suggest it, I can't even comprehend doing that. 

If I had two weeks-- I know myself. I'd procrastinate. I'd put even MORE pressure on myself to always be making The Very Best Comic Ever, since I'd have a whole *two weeks* to produce it, it better be a vast improvement over what I could slap together in one week, right? Which actually sounds like even more stress :| 

I think of this job and its deadline like being a journalist at a weekly paper. You do the best you can in your limited time and hopefully you're good enough to squeeze a couple gems in there. It's ok if they're not always groundbreaking, as long as the "good enough" that you're delivering is still "good" to your audience. 

Really, I'm worried that if I didn't have this deadline, I just wouldn't produce. 

And when I'm not producing, I'm nothing. 

Between being stressed out about getting enough work done or stressing out that I'm nothing, at least the former pays my bills and validates my existence. 

All these feelings over a job where I draw blowjobs for money.
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