teefblog 13/2/24 𓃹

Tabled at my first zine fair, it was quite exciting and I made more than I expected to :p I had to make all of my zines 20 minutes before I was meant to leave which was a bit stressful but we move.

Anyways I've been just chilling recently, my art practice has slowed down in the past week however, I yearn to dive back into my work, especially all my web projects. A month or so ago I got an idea for a website that's just a bunch of windows and when you click on them they enlarge and you get a view into the window. Getting a little insight into the bunnies lives (maybe I'll even animate it???, animation seems like way too much effort though.). I've been mesmerised by windows for a while I always find myself looking into them and imagining the lives of other people based off of all of the objects they have in their home. From my bfs flat window I can see an easle inside someones home and some canvases, I've somehow got way too invested in it and check it every day to see if there's any new canvases or if anything has been moved :3

I applied to uni after pondering it for ages and ages, I think a lot of people in art communities claim that art uni is useless and a waste of time/money. This has been the main take for uni in most artistic communities for the majority of my time in them and I think it's just really wrong. (it might be right for americans but you should study what you love). Yes you can just self teach or draw on your own or build your career on your own however, it's very isolating unless you're a giga normie with many many friends. Most of my time tending to my practice and trying to grow and develop has resulted in deep isolation that lasted years which I guess isn't the way everyone lives but I got hyper focused on the idea of "making it" so I didn't really let myself live. To be honest I am quite content with just spending all day drawing and creating it's fun, I am created to draw and paint and whatever else but sometimes the loneliness gets to me and that's okay but I wish I was a machine and could just draw 24/7 with no human needs it would be so lit :p Anyways yeah more people should study "useless" degrees <3 do whatever you want, study law and then never use your degree!!

I've been pondering what path I want to take as an artist, do I focus on galleries, freelancing, social media or whatever else there is??? Right now I just kind of want to do my own thing and self publish books and zines and hopefully make a good amount of money off of that at some point, it takes time and that's okay. I think I find myself overthinking and rushing things a lot, money will come to me when I start actually acting on my desires. That's why I'm gonna try to open my shop this month, the page is already done I just need to take product pictures and figure a few things out and then I'll be done and ready for it !!! Starting an online shop and selling merch/random ahh things has been something I've been wanting to do for a few years now but I kept putting it off due to the fact that I always assumed no one would buy it since my audience is quite small but I've grown a decent amount and feel confident that at least like two people would buy a zine!!! I'll be opening the shop a bit earlier for my patreons and will create a little discount code for yous too <3 I'm very grateful for all of you thank you for supporting me and my work <3

(I keep forgetting to use patreon seriously and am very very sorry 3: I think I struggle with consistency however I genuinely enjoy all my patreon related tasks and will try me very very very best to keep this up)