You know that clean slate feeling you get when you blow your nose after one of those goood deeeep ugly cries? That's the caliber of reset I need.
I feel so tired and sad and heavy and stuck too often.... Like I need a full detox just so I can get going again.
As if my Soul is constipated.
Damn.
And every time I realize I'm bout 2 days from giving up on my dreams simply to afford to never to go back, i panic even more. Like I'm an armed robber w Jiminy Cricket on my shoulder. Like I'm George in Of Mice and Men. But also Lennie..?
Idk. Point is, I'm sad and tired. And I know I'm the problem. I'm trying to reshape the way I think about things... Figuring life out is hard but doable. Everything costs money but that is attainable. Different therapy (and hugs) are desperately needed.
Next post won't be so depressing. 💛
Photo only kinda related - lost the mate to this earring on the way back from blerdcon. bit bummed about it. my father gave me those..