BLOG: My private reading with Queen Cup

Yesterday I had a private reading with Queen Cup was very helpful and enlightening. It’s been a minute since I’ve had one and it came at the perfect time. The first thing she told me was that I am moving forward from something but that there is still attachment there. That there is love but not the same type of love and that I have to understand that difference and not confuse them. This spoke to me mainly in regards to my child’s father. I recent got some news that really threw me off guard and caused me ego to spike and my feelings to feel nostalgic and like their was the possibility of love and reconciliation. Everything points to “no” but my heart felt confusion. She told me that whoever I’m with may or may not be my soulmate but that I am meant to explore and play with him. That if he triggers me and then we still stand strong after and better then he is the one for me right now. This couldn’t be truer. Our relationship has been challenging. Challenging sounds like a negative but it’s not. I have for sure felt triggered by certain things... like his sensitivity. However, I am grateful that I am working through this with someone who is in tune with his emotions (even if I don’t always agree or understand them) because before I was used to dealing with someone who didn’t want to talk about his emotions or mine. Every time we have a disagreement we work through it and he really has spearheaded that. I realized how quick I was to run away because that’s what I was used to my partner doing. Every month that passes I get more confirmation that I’m on the right path with the person that I’m with.

The next card she pulled was one that pertains to someone watching me. She said that someone I don’t expect has been watching me and/or Milah and I. This could pertain to new opportunities. This made me excited! Milah and I have been working hard behind the scenes to grow Good Moms in so many ways and we’ve been praying and manifesting the right opportunity. I know it will happen.

She then pulled a car that she described as someone liking to be center stage or more open with their emotions and someone else in the back being scared or reserved. She related this to Milah and I again. I told her that Milah and I are vulnerable in different ways. Milah recently so beautifully and openly shared her recent breakup and has been more vulnerable about her feelings on the show. I have shared so much of my life and feelings on the Podcast....but there is a vulnerability I have protected and been scared to show. I feel more safe sharing it here on Patreon. If you watched my last roll up video I got a lil emotional and that was scary for me. Queen Cups said that the moment I decide to be more vulnerable I will help so many more people. Aaaaah pressure! She said it has to be on my own time but that it must happen to transcend to the next chapter.

Lastly, the one thing things that kept coming through from beginning to end was that most people won’t understand my need to be “freer than most”. My desire to walk out in the sun naked. I felt this deeply and I’ve always felt this. Even as a child. I had moments where I felt free and people who try to quell my freedom because it seemed odd or “too much”. Starting Good Moms really was a huge stepping stone in opening up that part of me. I was terrified what my family would think about my candidness. TERRIFIED. I don’t know if you guys know but I work with my mom and we have a reputable beauty brand (hi Beautyblender) and I was so scared she would fire me or distance me from the company because I was being too open. I was also scared what my BD would think or what his fans would share with him. There is still a part of me that thinks about them before I share things which I think is natural. I want to give them respect but I also want to be able to share things that I think are useful for the Tribe. This is something I am consciously working on and trying to balance. So expect more crying hahaha.

All in all my reading with Queen Cup came at the perfect time. Make sure you go check out her monthly reading of each sign!

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