Update
Added 2024-10-02 21:44:53 +0000 UTCJust a heads up, this is a serious post with heavy topics which I sadly need to cover.
Last week, I stopped myself from doing a very irreversible and stupid thing, I had a mental episode like nothing I've ever encountered and the police got involved (to look for me). I regret that it got that far, and I am so happy I am here to write this.
I apologise for the silence but I think I needed a little time to just adjust and get used to new meds I am now on. I never meant to make anyone feel ignored if they reached out and I am so thankful you all support me.
I plan on writing Epic tomorrow and I just want to say, that I want you here, today, and now. If you have that voice telling you otherwise?
Me and Delta want to be louder.
I want you here.
See you soon folks, be happy and be punnier.
Comments
You are more important than what you write. Your mental and emotional health come first.
Charles Stitman
2024-12-17 15:01:42 +0000 UTCIt’s wayyy late, I haven’t checked your Patreon in a while. Hope you get better and I send hugs your way.
forwad Nothing
2024-11-21 15:43:46 +0000 UTCI know i'm a bit late to this, but i've said it before, and i'll say it again. YOU COME FIRST! if you need time, take it. if you need to think things through, do it. even if you need to drop the story, as much as it would suck, your life is more important. so please, don't push yourself if you start to feel down, or if those thoughts start to overwhelm.
Cameron Vigil
2024-10-07 20:15:57 +0000 UTCAs do I for you. I just wanted you to know of the joy you bring. As cliché as that sounds
strainge guy1
2024-10-06 03:42:36 +0000 UTCI hope you get to that better headspace sooner than ever but either way I'm glad you're on the path to it. Lots of hugs!
MatrixM
2024-10-04 12:02:01 +0000 UTCLove your story love your post love your humor! Stay strong you are loves and i eagerly await any new posts. I often myself thought about game over but then i always remeber my friends who would miss me the enemies who would be delighted and all the bloody games and stories i would miss, so i will carry on out of spite against my foes and curiosity for the future.
Sardeed
2024-10-04 03:44:45 +0000 UTCI'm not typically on here, but I saw the AN on RR and so I came to check what's up. I just wanted to let you know that every chapter of Epic brightens my day. We want you here too. Glad to hear that you're doing a bit better.
kp8080
2024-10-04 02:28:15 +0000 UTCHey Stewart, just want to say that whenever you post an new chapter for Epic it makes my week. The work, the thought, and the care you put into each chapter really shines through. I've been reading Epic for years (I don't remember when I got into it, but I think there was less than 30 chapters out or when it was on RR's front page) and I selfishly want to keep reading it for years to come. Please take care of yourself. I sincerely hope things get better for you.
David - Gibbson
2024-10-04 01:13:27 +0000 UTCHey normaly i dont comment but i wanted to tell you that since i discovered epic loot about four years ago. It always makes my day brighter and helped me allot. In short Form thank you and i wish you the best. Take care of yourself my man the World would be a much less happy without you.
Mal_Nightshade
2024-10-03 22:20:51 +0000 UTCThank you for reaching out, I'm so happy to hear about your sister doing better. Thank you for being here too!
Stewart92
2024-10-03 20:36:08 +0000 UTCI shall search for this mystical creature
Stewart92
2024-10-03 20:35:30 +0000 UTCI swear I lose my head if it wasn't attached!
Stewart92
2024-10-03 20:35:16 +0000 UTCThank you! It's a lot harder to feel 'darker' when I read messages and I'm glad you like epic so as well ^^
Stewart92
2024-10-03 20:34:57 +0000 UTCI'm glad my work can help in any way, if you need to cancel patreon, you can reach out and I'll dm you future chapters
Stewart92
2024-10-03 20:34:20 +0000 UTCThat sounds great, I'm such a patternless person by nature, more go by the wind, but I've being doing what works for me which is just coffess and sitting in the sun and not just pushing things down, thank you so much for the sport!
Stewart92
2024-10-03 20:33:52 +0000 UTCThank you, I am in the best place, which is outside my own head ^^
Stewart92
2024-10-03 20:31:56 +0000 UTCThis means a lot to me, thank you so much and I hope your friend is doing better these days
Stewart92
2024-10-03 20:31:38 +0000 UTCI'm glad to hear it, I hope you have more better days than not
Stewart92
2024-10-03 20:31:10 +0000 UTCPeople have been insanely kind so I might reach out better next time!
Stewart92
2024-10-03 20:30:49 +0000 UTCIt's more than enough, thank you
Stewart92
2024-10-03 20:30:27 +0000 UTCI'm glad you're here today, with me.
Stewart92
2024-10-03 20:30:18 +0000 UTCThank you! New meds are good but make me a little sleepy ^^
Stewart92
2024-10-03 20:30:04 +0000 UTCAye aye sir! I'm taking more walks when the sun is up ^^
Stewart92
2024-10-03 20:29:36 +0000 UTCsix years, jeez, how are you not bored of me yet? seriously tho, thank you so much
Stewart92
2024-10-03 20:28:54 +0000 UTCI hope I can keep helping and making some days better for you ^^
Stewart92
2024-10-03 20:21:09 +0000 UTCwelcome aboard and heck of a post to join on, but good news, next post will be better!
Stewart92
2024-10-03 20:20:32 +0000 UTCHi Stewie, fan from around 6 years here (started looking forward to delta since chapter 16 or so on royalroad). This has been my favorite story/series of all time. Thank you for being here. As a long time fan, take all the time you need and hope the best for you.
Miguel
2024-10-03 17:09:07 +0000 UTCHey Stewart, Just wanted to let you know I've been really enjoying your story about Delta since I discovered it a week or so back. I like how it takes the 'clear distinct powers through menus' trope but funnels it into a story that's wholesome and fun, with Delta being committed to making her dungeon friend-shaped. I just joined your patreon as I believe in paying for stuff I enjoy when I can and saw the above message. I really hope that, even if today isn't a good day, tomorrow and the days after will be better and better for you!
Tessa Kroes
2024-10-03 16:43:22 +0000 UTCEveryone has something wrong about themselves, it's nothing to be ashamed of. What matters is that you work to be more than your body and mind, and that's wonderful. The journey of infinity begins with a single step
Typhoonator
2024-10-03 14:42:38 +0000 UTCTake care, I hope things work well. 🤗
Ethan Barrow
2024-10-03 11:55:45 +0000 UTCThank you for everything. Take care of yourself, we're here for you.
Sebgatot
2024-10-03 11:10:27 +0000 UTCStay safe, I know the feeling. Remember, there are people who care about you!!
Regan
2024-10-03 10:52:34 +0000 UTCTake all the time you need and prioritise your wellbeing, we all hope you get better.
Andrid9
2024-10-03 10:26:37 +0000 UTCHope you feel better soon. You got this
David Adams
2024-10-03 09:04:14 +0000 UTCSince even before starting to read this epic my mind was in a bad place, I spent days in bed watching the same YouTube over and over. One of the things that helped pull me our of that monotony was stories like this, I love a ton of the HFY stories and that's actually where someone recommended your story to me, you are one of the many pillars that I use to keep myself excited and happy, thank you for all that you do for us and I really do wish you the best
Bigjman666
2024-10-03 07:01:15 +0000 UTCMaybe take a vacation or something to help you recover
AG
2024-10-03 05:59:52 +0000 UTCI too suffer from depression, and understand, please take care of yourself first and foremost!
CF Sapper
2024-10-03 04:18:27 +0000 UTCSeriously take all the time you need, as much as I love your story it's not as important as your wellbeing!!! I know what it's like to live with Mental Health issues and circumstances outside of your control so take things one day at a time and do whatever it is you need to do to be happy and whole. Know your community is here because they care.
The-Nowhere-Man
2024-10-03 03:11:03 +0000 UTCWe are here for you.
Patrick
2024-10-03 02:55:43 +0000 UTCI don't know what to say, but the remorse I would feel having said nothing is spurring me to write. My sister struggled with this for a while and a dear friend of hers was gone suddenly. It was scary, and worrying, for a long time. I can say my sister is in a much happier, better place; but this all still brings tears to my eyes. I'm glad you're ok, and here still.
Isaac Mcdonald
2024-10-03 02:55:11 +0000 UTCI am glad you are okay. Life is hard, and can seem overwhelming. And it's hedgehogs. Hedgehogs are the answer. Cats are only a placebo.
Thomas Lawless
2024-10-03 02:17:09 +0000 UTCAnytime there are people looking for you there’s a chance to recreate this legend. https://www.vice.com/en/article/missing-drunk-man-spent-hours-helping-a-search-party-look-for-himself/
Dirk Gent Lee
2024-10-03 01:57:17 +0000 UTCThe world is better with you in it
Dirk Gent Lee
2024-10-03 01:55:11 +0000 UTCReplace with puppies, doggies, and chickens and I would recommend the same.
Daniel Gesualdi
2024-10-03 01:43:09 +0000 UTCKeep looking after yourself and strive to find the joy that life can give. Know that no matter what the dark thoughts may say you are cared about and you have people who will miss you. Thank you for your time writing I love reading about the quirky Delta and friends.
brennon Petersen
2024-10-03 01:04:29 +0000 UTCKeep looking after yourself. Been there, I'm currently using escapism with great works of fiction like yours as a healthy coping mechanism, please keep it coming. In all seriousness though, thank you for continuing to write and share this story, it's helped me with some really tough times and I hope it helps you and you know your high worth
Ben
2024-10-03 00:57:21 +0000 UTCI am so very very glad you did not buy a timeshare. Remember to engage in many different activities to keep yourself feeling fresh, healthy, and engaged such as Video games, Cat interaction, Walks, Cat interaction, Reading, Cat interaction, Chatting with friends, Cat interaction, Art, Cat interaction, and watching kitten cams online.
PickledTink
2024-10-03 00:48:42 +0000 UTCTake care of yourself mate. I’ve been there and it’s always hard. I don’t know if it’d help you, but just in case it does I found it helped me personally to set rules for it. I’m a very pattern oriented person so I told myself that if I want to do it that’s fine, but I had to follow the rules first. First, I had to wait a week. If at any point during that week I decided that it was a bad idea the timer reset. If I made it to the end of the week then the second rule was I had to then go talk to someone I cared about like family or a friend or even a work colleague who was nice. I didn’t have to mention anything about it but I did have to have an extended conversation. After that I had to wait another week with the same reset rule as the first. I’ve never made it past the start of the second week, so that’s stopped me making a few very bad decisions. It probably wouldn’t work for everyone but at least personally it helped to acknowledge that yes, I did feel that way and instead of completely forbidding it and making a bad decision on impulse, having criteria that allowed it but were really hard to meet made it easier to deal with. Hopefully that helps someone. :) Anyway, take damn care of yourself. I know it’s stupid and cliche but I don’t mean anything big like going to the gym or whatever the fuck most people say. I just mean go for a walk and buy yourself a nice croissant or something small that’s near other people and gets a bit of dopamine in you. Heck, if you need to and don’t take care of it already then set a gods damned alarm to drink and eat regularly. It’s stupid but also helped me a lot. Stay safe and around. I like this series and you seem like a good bloke, so it’d be a pity to have another one where I’m always wondering if the author is okay when it goes on eternal hiatus. That’s just depressing and I’ve already got enough of those. Thanks for the series! 🙃
CringeWorthyStudios
2024-10-03 00:45:34 +0000 UTCTake care, your work is by far my favorite. It took me out of dark place... Seriously take as much time as you need.
Wolf
2024-10-03 00:19:41 +0000 UTCDon't feel rushed. We like you and your writing, and we can wait as long as we need. Just make sure you are in a safe place, we are here for whatever you need.
Sergio Campos Jurado
2024-10-02 23:51:38 +0000 UTCThanks for not going away... For real... Words don't really describe it, but my best friend nearly went for good by his own hands a couple months back... And it's far from easy, but knowing that you didn't go, it means the world to me. You, your words, your imagination and creation, helped me a lot over the years. I am really really REALLY glad you are here. Thank you.
arthur amorim
2024-10-02 23:38:14 +0000 UTCMy mental health is similarly bad, without exaggeration. As such I'd like you to know that your books help me keep living. The puns can make me chuckle in the worst of moments.
strainge guy1
2024-10-02 23:36:43 +0000 UTCI've been there too, take care of yourself first, please. And hey, if you can't get a hold of anyone when you need them, I'm sure if you posted here we'll be able to remind you there are people in your corner.
Faeolin the Wild Elf
2024-10-02 23:20:57 +0000 UTCI know it’s not much but thank you for the wonderful stories.
Gold
2024-10-02 23:12:46 +0000 UTCI'll wait for you, I'll just do another reread of epic. I've also tried to do the dumb things had an almost 4 hour phone call with my therapist. Things like your book and just good people, make life more bearable. Thank you
Gwendolyn Sowards
2024-10-02 22:57:11 +0000 UTCPlease remember that your fantastic no matter what sort of lapses occur. I hope you are getting the support you need while your meds are getting rebalanced I know that is one of the more stressful parts of taking medicine affecting your mentality. Try and find a bit of joy after that episode everything seems to go better if you find a bit of joy even if it's something simple like a particularly good coffee or pastries. I hope your around for many years to come.
Daniel Gesualdi
2024-10-02 22:54:24 +0000 UTCI have nothing but respect for you for making this post, mental health isn't easy to talk about. Its good to hear you must have support at home. I have recently gone on medication and it's crazy how much the adjusting period sucks.
PEBZ101
2024-10-02 22:50:51 +0000 UTCTake care of yourself, and don't hesitate to talk about it! One of my friend currently suffering from depression and talking has been helping him getting better. And don't worry for the chapter, I've been following this amazing story of yours for nearly 6 years, so no problem waiting if you want time for yourself!
Solaris
2024-10-02 22:40:06 +0000 UTCI'll add it to my listen of shopping next time. Thank you for caring
Stewart92
2024-10-02 22:34:17 +0000 UTCSix years! That's while... also Tolkien could have written more but his editors made him cut out more dialog about trees and they managed to make 4 books into 3. Seriously tho, thank you. I hope and your husband are doing amazing.
Stewart92
2024-10-02 22:33:54 +0000 UTCI'm glad you're still here too my friend
Stewart92
2024-10-02 22:32:43 +0000 UTCI will, the thing just came on in 20 minutes, I was confused then terrified but thankfully I'm getting help now!
Stewart92
2024-10-02 22:32:22 +0000 UTCIt's been a week but I just felt like I might write Epic tomorrow out of general 'good vibes' not because of deadlines or anything ^^ I'm in a good place
Stewart92
2024-10-02 22:31:46 +0000 UTCI love you all too as much as is socially acceptable
Stewart92
2024-10-02 22:31:13 +0000 UTCI'd be sad if you disappeared one day, many others would as well. I'd recommend trying Magnesium (not Oxide, or Aspirate), I found out my diet barely contained any (and many Americans according to the national institute of health), and it helped me personally with my mental and physical health.
Gavriel
2024-10-02 22:25:58 +0000 UTCMy husband has had a couple of suicide attempts, especially when changing medication. It is rough, and we are here for you. Everyone reading the story, especially at this point (congrats on passing the length of the whole lord of the ring series by the way) wants you to take as long as you need. We want the story to keep going for a while, and one our favorite authors to be happy while writing it. I have been a fan for 6 years or so at this point, you taking a few weeks off to have time when you need it is worth it to me.
Drake Lundstrom
2024-10-02 22:15:25 +0000 UTCHey, thank you for telling us. I'm very glad that you are still here and able to tell us. I wish upon many moments to make it worth it to be here.
Konrad2
2024-10-02 22:14:04 +0000 UTCtake care of yourself, stew. do what ever you need to feel better.
Plinkplank
2024-10-02 22:12:57 +0000 UTCHey I've tried to do that very irreversible and stupid thing before as well. Things are different now, and they'll become different for you too. Glad you're still here!
Jake
2024-10-02 22:10:41 +0000 UTCYou've touched a lot of people with your writing and just being you. I'm glad I found Epic and I'm glad you're still with us.
ChrisDA
2024-10-02 21:58:14 +0000 UTCTake care of yourself, Stewie. We'll be here, and we'll be glad that you're still here too.
Aaron Sofaer
2024-10-02 21:57:48 +0000 UTCYou are never truly alone ❤️
Isaac Martinez
2024-10-02 21:56:10 +0000 UTCI hope your support system is there for you. We may be voices in the sky but we hope you are ok
Coleman
2024-10-02 21:53:27 +0000 UTCSending love and positive thoughts your way! Please look after yourself because you are cared for and deserve to be. Glad you are still here ❤️
Rados
2024-10-02 21:52:51 +0000 UTCWe are ok if you spend more time for your self, you are making a great story!
Anthony Harrington
2024-10-02 21:51:35 +0000 UTCtake care and try to talk to people before you really need it. im going to therapy myself so i can only recommend it
Argwan
2024-10-02 21:51:08 +0000 UTCDon’t worry about the chapter, do something for yourself.
HattmanHendrix
2024-10-02 21:49:15 +0000 UTCI hope your doing better today than tomorrow boss. You got angels looking out for you!
WarStrider72
2024-10-02 21:49:12 +0000 UTCFuck mate just take your time, stories worth the wait and I'd rather you were alive and healthy. Just let us know when you need a break so we'll know not to expect anything for a bit. Good authors who create great reads are a treasure to readers and we'd rather not loose you!
Straven
2024-10-02 21:48:03 +0000 UTCVery glad you stopped yourself. Take whatever time you need.
crusaderstar
2024-10-02 21:47:26 +0000 UTCI’m glad you’re still here.
Nobody10
2024-10-02 21:47:24 +0000 UTCHey Stewie, I know live can be tough but I’m proud of you on trudging through. We love you dude
Carcavac
2024-10-02 21:46:37 +0000 UTCYou kicked ass, Stew. I hope things get better for you because that’s what you deserve.
SaroNeko
2024-10-02 21:46:28 +0000 UTCIt’s OK to take a mental health day
Kaleb Fant
2024-10-02 21:46:17 +0000 UTCI hope you get well soon
Kaleb Fant
2024-10-02 21:46:00 +0000 UTCHugs
Brandon Yarberry
2024-10-02 21:45:49 +0000 UTC
