TheMagicalGurl

Ch 2 Autopsy: Nothing to be sorry for...

Added 2023-05-31 05:16:27 +0000 UTC

Not gonna lie y'all, I saw what people do to be successful... Many are jobless OR their game IS THEIR JOB and throwing their soul into their work to survive a horrible uncertain existence. They put time into their shit, which is what I don't have..... Time... Perhaps in retrospect I should have practiced a bit more before releasing chapter 1 altogether..... I tried to add time I didnt have this past month, even calling off of work to do so... Bills are behind... Car stuff needs work... Credit cards maxed. I also have job related stuff to do... Time for a break (after Starvessel's bonus work is done) I am thinking 2 weeks of freetime (which is really only 4 fucking days)... I have earned it for realsies. Then a full court press to Chapter 2.1! NO TIMETABLE!

People expect alot from you and when it comes time to return the respect, many don't (8 people do)... But at this point, its about bringing it home in the future... Finishing up. Chapter 3 looks like the beginning of the end if support doesn't improve. I dont have the endless time to spare to make this fully up to snuff. I have no life keeping this up. I dont go anywhere or do much of nothing outside of work and this game and its mentally taxing... The silence I recieve for this only exacerbates the issues too. Even hate would be nice... I can laugh at it but I feel so irrelevant and pathetic that I dont even get THAT. Fuck.....

With work/life balance literally at 100 to 0, NO ONE would be happy with this and its been this way for a month... I must make a change... Unfortunately, that negatively effects PM. I cannot and will not allow anything to hurt my already unstable mental health... So... Perhaps September for Ch3 was a bit too hopeful... I hate to keep expanding the dev time I need, but I need to be SANE while making things... Also July is a shitty month for me financially...

Behind every update... is a human with feelings that wants love shown. At this time, Chapter 4 will wrap this up far earlier than I wanted to... but it will be done... For a sense of pride and accomplishment... Nothing more or less I guess...

Have a nice night. Mood in attachment.