sadness - dream of me
Added 2022-03-17 21:06:15 +0000 UTCif you read my post about my new song "rana" I mention that the working title for that song was "rose". before I decided on the name rana I always referred to that unfinished song as "rose original", because it predates the sadness song "rose" that was actually used on the album rose lavender.
this song was also called "rose", and I fully intented on using it for rose/lavender and it being the "rose" song, predating the actual rose song (I believe), i don't know when I started making this I forgot to check, but it was sometime in spring 2016. the song was really cool until I got carried away with the improvisation and started playing literal nonsense. I don't know what I was doing. the guitars changed keys like 5 times and it was just really bad. the song stopped convincing me after that and I completely trashed it for many years until last year when I realized that I could jsut dfelte the bad parts and keep the good ideas. so I rearranged the recording so now only the cool stuff is left. I wrote the lyrics july of last year and you can just assume what I'm talking about I'm not going to go in depth
"i don’t understand why i dont have the words, or why i cant open my eyes. why is rosa so painful. why does something so perfect slip through my hands. why do i have no body. why am i left alone. why did you leave.. why does red rain dry in the coldest season why do you feel so close to me and i’ve never felt your touch how do you hold me without touch how do you leave me without touch why don’t i see your eyes why do mine mean nothing why is nothing in my eyes yet i’m crying so much why am i crying so much why are you in every one of my tears why do i love you so much i wish you would stay i wish you wouldn’t let go i wish you were here …"
