It's hard to say goodbye
Added 2022-11-07 09:56:20 +0000 UTCI've been hoping until the last minute that the RP would come back but now I've lost all hope.
Brian's player is very busy, I can hardly talk to him at all and at this point, I don't think he'll go back to play.
On the other hand, Sam's player moved to RP servers in RedM and has ditched me completely refusing to jump on RDO bc "there's nothing to do and you can't RP there".
So, Joey is completely on her own right now. I'm doubting if I should try to find closure for her or just put her on standby just in case Brian would ever come back.
Either way, this past week has been like hell emotionally speaking because of all that. I was so much into this RP and I was never ready for the end of it, at least not so abruptly. Bc of how things are going with Sam's player I feel that even if Brian would get back, Sam wouldn't and then I'm not sure Brian would want to keep the RP with just the two of us. So there's no point for me to keep holding into any kind of hope.
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Thank you so much, truly ❤️
Lady Petticoat
2022-11-07 17:54:33 +0000 UTCYes, I’ll try to do that. Probably I’ll just imagine that Brian comes back and they just settle somewhere and just leave together loving each other until the end of their days.
Lady Petticoat
2022-11-07 17:53:55 +0000 UTCMaybe after you had some time to process this you can find some closure for yourself. Just in your head or as a short fiction or comic. Just to settle the matter for you
Janis Broszat
2022-11-07 15:58:43 +0000 UTCTake all the time you need to heal those wounds. RP loss wounds are very real and very valid. You are creating a universe and story with people you trust and deem friends. Losing that can take a toll and warrant a grief reaction. I’ve been there, and it sucks. But it does get easier and the wounds will heal. It just takes time. Whatever you do chose to do, when you are ready, I will be happy to watch what you do.
Faye
2022-11-07 13:45:43 +0000 UTCThank you so much for your words, they really mean a lot to me at this moment. It was my first time doing RP and I got completely hooked up with it, I never thought it could end this way and that I would feel this miserable. I keep telling myself it's just a game and yet each of my friends and acquaintances that have done RP before tell me that it's not dumb to feel how I'm feeling and that it's completely normal. I've been thinking of what you've said, to take especially Brian and keep going with their story but I know it's not the same bc my friend gave him life in a very specific way and I know I got to understand his character but it still his and there were some things that happened while Brian was away that I wanted to know his reaction once he got to knew them. I really needed that interaction between Joey and Brian but well, I guess that's it. I want to keep drawing those two bc I love them very much but might take a bit of a break to try to heal this wound. Again, thank you so much for your kind words.
Lady Petticoat
2022-11-07 12:50:50 +0000 UTCOh dear.. that sounds horrible. Worst ways for rps to end is abruptly and with no closure. Thats the most difficult. I’m so sorry that happened to you. :( I know how much you adored their story and adventure. It was beautiful, and fun to watch unfold. If Sam or Brian’s players don’t want to continue it, however; perhaps you could rebrand it or make a version of it for yourself. Make it your own. You don’t deserve to be made to say goodbye if you’re not ready.
Faye
2022-11-07 11:39:27 +0000 UTC
