realistic_lighting_overhaul

Second stream done! 3 hours! I feel proud of myself.

Hi everyone!

I have started streaming at https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCTW0W0FSNTxQzeiiArNc74g<...

Ironing out sound issues for stream + massive migraine.

So the test stream was helpful in figuring out what was broken. 

I have fixed my quiet audio which was mostly panning to the right ear for viewers. Raffy (my son) helped fix other issues...

Test stream done!

It was awful but it was just to test settings!

It's a start!

Stream setup at 99% - Might start tomorrow...

So my son and I have setup my stream, its mostly done. At about 99%.

I could do a trial run tonight, seeing how I feel but I'm very light headed.

Tomorrow it's almost a certainty.

Positive update...

So in the last two days I have been back at it trying to shake off my social anxiety by playing Lethal Company and making some friends.

It's been quite a few years since I played multiplayer ...

Streaming for food...

Yes you read that right.

My son is helping me setup my channel again this week which means after 5 long years I will return to streaming games.

I will literally be streaming as a way to...

14 weeks...

Hi everyone,

So I have added up all the funds people have donated and calculated that on a very tight budget, I can survive in my current home for 14 weeks.

I am also in the process of ...

Essentials purchased for the next month.

Thank you so much, your donations and patrons have helped me secure all my essentials (toilet paper, soaps, wipes, etc) for the next 4 weeks.

If Patrons remain at the current rate, and with t...

Medical Certificate Granted + Massive BPD episodes.

I was granted a medical certificate for the next 3 months due to my ongoing health issues.

I also feel very sorry for the people in my life dealing with this.

Mainly my son Raffy, my br...

A return to streaming despite health issues.

I have come to the decision to get back to streaming soon. I am a bit worried about fainting on stream or having low energy but I feel like I should stream at least 4 to 8 hours a day as though it ...

Thanks again to all the patrons who have joined!

I want to thank all the new patrons and those who upped their pledges.

Please give me a week or two to update the RLO mod with all your names. I just have a lot on my plate and once things se...

What the actual f***

I volunteered to have an appointment with Octec to see if I can look for work that suits my disability.

I have no work obligations to do until the 9th of November, but I decided to ask them f...

Housing application made.

Hopefully I can be accepted so I can avoid being homeless.

This might be a lengthy process, so I hope the support I have received can sustain me until then.

I AM SO STRESSED. 

It didn't go well with my social worker.

Just read the email.

What a load of bullshit.

I already did the process she is asking me to do in 2020. Now they want me to do it all again. She has all my medical records. I spoke to m...

Calls with social workers and also housing today.

Wish me luck.

So far the first two meetings with these people haven't really gone anywhere.

They seemed promising but so far a whole week has gone by and nothing concrete has happened. ...

Proof that rent was paid.

Yes my bank account looks bad right now. I haven't withdrawn the patreon money or the gofundme yet. There is $610 in gofundme and $400 in patreon.

I have $500 in Paypal.

This means I ha...

OMG so many new patrons! Rent was paid!

God there are so many new patrons that I am getting confused to who I have thanked.

I want to thank you all as a collective to make things easier on my brain.

I feel a bit overwhelmed. ...

Welcome to the new members! Thank you.

Welcome Tom Free, Spook Tacular, deedlez349 and Blackread!

Thanks so much for joining and helping out.

I also want to add that it might take me a bit longer than usual to update all the...

Karma round 1 has struck.

My ex wifes boyfriend (who lives with my children) has been arrested.

Family services took my children away because of my disability and put them in a home with convicted criminals.

Kar...

A quick thank you

Thanks to the people who have upped their pledges and donated to the gofundme.

We have raised about $340 this week, and that is almost an extra weeks rent for me. 

Two people donat...

GoFundMe

My girlfriend has setup a GoFundMe page for me.

Please share it around, even if you can't donate to the cause.

https://gof...

My life is over...homelessness looming.

This is just me getting things off my chest.

I am not in the best mindset and sorry if this is a rant. 

The 9th of November will result in a change of my life.

I have been fi...

Getting old...birthday on Friday.

Well I am getting old...

Hasn't been the best of years but I am grateful for what I have.

I plan to have lunch with my children on Friday and then head off to see my parents. I haven't ...

Cardiologist results are in...

So the results are in and its given me some mixed feelings.

Trying to remain positive but theres ...

Heart results with cardiologist this Monday

So this Monday I am off to the cardiologist after a month or so worth of intense tests and monitoring.

I really hope they can figure out this fainting issue. 

During this time I ke...

CT Angiogram was not fun...

I had my CT angiogram and it wasn't fun.

Let's just say the catheter into an artery was the least of the scary stuff.

They had to do the scan THREE TIMES, so 3x the radiation and 3x the...

More updates...

Just a quick update, I am off to get a CT Angiogram on Tuesday 5th of September.

I am still on my 4 week heart monitor. 

Had a rough day a couple of days ago, with racing heart and...

Health update

Just a quick update that I finally saw the cardiologist at the clinic. It was a week later than expected because I wasn't well enough to travel last week.

I had an ecg, heart echo and a tread...

A little update

Well on the 21st I am off to a cardiology clinic to follow up on some findings when I was in hospital.

Apparently I had an "episode of SVT, with low qrs voltage in precordial leads".

I ...

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