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Garbage Bag Panties.

He looped the rope through the cuffs on my ankles and pulled it back, pushing my knees close to my chest before fastening the rope to the back frame of the bed. I don't know what's going on with me...

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Womb Of The Water.



No matter where I looked no god I could find,
not one that inspired faith of soul or mind,
but whenever I called out in love or pain,
I could always find the patter of the rain....

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Happy Women's Day.

They gave us free sanitary pads — winged and scented for our comfort — and taught us how to use them.

The room was coloured in hues of pink and power; the walls adorned with glittering ...

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Washing off the dirt.


I love everything about being drenched in piss, except the part when it starts to dry and it starts to burn my skin a little. Burning might not be the perfect way to describe it; it's not a war...

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Why the Hell Would you Want Scars on Your body?

Hello!

Is scarring a legitimate fetish? Is it always linked to self-harm and indicative of a mental health issue? How does it impact you in the long-term? Are nurses superior to doctors? View Post

Helpless For Pussy.

She makes me stupid but to my advantage she couldn't know it. She wouldn't, especially since she has never expressed any interest in my brain or any manner of discourse that would suggest she was a...

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Between Brothers.



His fingers linger,
Over the purple imprints on my arm.
He doesn't say anything,
And I continue to gaze out of the window,
as if I don't notice that he's stroking the thumb ...

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When I See All Of You.

I love your extremities.

In tenderness, you are so soft.

Like your fingers are weightless when they stroke my cheek.

And your lips came straight from the oven when they meet...

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Two Daddies Are Meaner than One.

I keep biting into the rope in my mouth with my incisors, I am not doing it in an attempt to chew through it, in fact, there is no intent to it at all. The binds of the rope are cutting the sides o...

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Tell Me How To Hate It.


Whip bites.

Fists fall.

Leather meets skin.

I want to scream but it's stuck like the memory of a hair in my throat.

It's not really there.

But I remember ...

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Mistress.

I can only be taken out after the party is over.

When everyone is gone,

And the prying eyes have retreated for the day.

When only those remain,

the ones who are priv...

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Podcast Episode 29: Am i Socially Infantile?

I've always had friends and lovers who were at least a decade older. I was always the "youth" or the "kid" in my social circles and now that I'm at a "respectable" age, I'm experiencing something s...

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Disputed Property

I can be just yours. In that I can give everything I have right now to you. 


But along the way I gave little pieces of my heart to some people from whom I can't take it back.&...

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The Animal.

It's dark outside. It has to be because the clock says it's well past nine. It doesn't matter though. It doesn't matter that the sun comes up every morning and children scurry away to school with g...

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Home.



Around the corner from the rain gutter,
where good girls never wandered at night,
the men would pass by with a mutter,
at its unseemly and dilapidated sight.
Big letters in ...

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We Were Real Among The Clouds.

It was about to rain. I could smell it coming. We were at least ten kilometers away from our campsite and I had no idea how we had even gotten to this particular peak. As the clouds were descending...

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My Dark Little Thing.


We used to meet during lunch, in the library, on Wednesdays and Fridays. I don't know how we decided we would meet on those days, but I think it had to do with us having prep right after...

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Secrets.

The creepers that once grew outside on a vine,
have now invaded where was once marble,
and wild flowers grow without support,
where the blue vase she so loved once stood.
The paint ...

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One home To Another.

The chaos is constant. I've never lived in a place so disordered. I drive out into the streets and it feels like I may be the only person who knows about the existence of traffic violations, includ...

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Show everyone your cunt.

It's all I can focus on, even though the sounds of them talking amongst themselves are coming through the curtain, I can't bring myself to shift focus long enough to listen. 


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The Men Sound The Same.

All men sound the same to me when they are laughing at me. I like hearing it, the sound of ridicule bouncing off my shoulders, down my back and travelling slowly to the tips of my toes where it rem...

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Strike A Nerve.

"Take my shoes off," he said sitting down on the bed.

I pulled at the neat little knot and it unravelled instantly. As I looked at the criss-cross of the lace going through the tiny holes I...

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Purple.



For silken robes and jewels it was meant,
or so my young, hopeful teacher once felt.
For royalty and grand stature it was decreed,
that hues of purple would be freed.
A natural ...

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Podcast E27: Sexcel Sheets and Sanitary Kink.

Hi! 

Kink is complicated, but we seem intent on making it as socially acceptable as possible, and I wonder if that makes it less safe. 

Also my sister is making Sexcel Sheets....

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Ancilla's Dirty Diary: Too Tough Love.

Something strange happened this week. I was at my best friend's home, she's had a really rough two years. She had a baby, the adult daughter of her partner moved in with them six months into having...

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Humanoid Figure.


As I walk through the living room towards the bedroom, I notice his evidence of him on the dining table. We all leave it around, and the ones who know us best can look through our homes, and im...

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India's Other Daughter.

           We haven't moved in a while. India Gate is still on my right and the bold declaration of love to someone named Ritu that I had clos...

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The tragedy Of Obedience


Most of the night is a blur. That happens sometimes. It's hard to tell the beatings apart past a point; it's hard to place them even when I can see the marks on my body. I remember the n...

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Darkness.

'Who knows I am here?' I often wonder aloud,
and sometimes I ask the lizard on the wall,
if she has it in her to gather for me a crowd,
lest I be carried out of here by a bearer of pall....

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Defector.


By giants I was taught strength,
and endurance to any length,
their lessons said to never cower,
and to covet the potion of power.
By the hand of the righteous knight,
I was...

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