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Podcast E26: The Indian Army, Going Viral and Anonymity.

I pissed off the Indian Army this week. Like I really, really pissed them off but my outrage was righteous and I got a lot of support too. It was a weird experience, I have a lot to say about it un...

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Her Only Indulgence.

"You look so beautiful," he told her as she walked out of the bathroom dressed in black garters and flaming red lingerie.
The red clashed magically with her green eyes. It shouldn't have worked...

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Her Ugly Little Secret.

"Sometimes, I wonder what I see in you," she says moving her left foot off my face so I can see  her.


She walks away from me, towards the armchair in the corner of the room, a...

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Podcast E25: But do I even have a personality?

The last few weeks have been insane. I haven't been around as much as I would like but the dust seems to have settled and I am back with an all too detailed discussion about how one knows their per...

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I Guess I Said Yes.

The room grows very quiet, all of a sudden, as I get on my knees and stretch my arms up over my head and look at him, propped up on one arm, and staring at me. A familiar fear washes over me, and I...

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Are You Afraid Of Not Breathing?

We spent the evening on a boat, watching the sun set into the lake while the fisherman who took us out onto the water told us the tale of a road accident 2000-kilometers away that led him to give u...

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The Other Women.

Something has changed about the way I see your other women. Look, I know, on a human level, there's an ethical, moral understanding with which we operate. I never bound you in the chains of monogam...

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New Delhi.


    



"I feel like I can't breathe," I said as a familiar panic gripped me like a hand around my throat. 


I got up an...

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How to break a sadist.

There is a spot in my thigh where I hate being punched. It's a few inches higher than the spot where I cracked my femur a decade ago. I assume my hatred for being punched in that place has to do wi...

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How do you keep the kink alive in a long-term relationship?



For the first few years that we were together, my partner and I had a very free and wild lifestyle, and by that I mean, we were free to fuck at 6 PM and wildly go to bed by 9:30 PM. I know....

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Eighteen.

“Tell them you’re 18 or 19,” he told me in what can be considered a briefing

“Why?” I asked him, “18 or 20, what’s the difference?”

I actually came to like the man; t...

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Our Song.

"When you step out of the bathroom, I'm going to punch you," I told her as her growls faded into silence.
"Why?" She asked clearing her throat, "Do you hate my music?"
"No," I responded, "I ...

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My Husband Is Not My Friend

I love my husband. He is my favourite person in the whole world, if it were anything less than that I wouldn't have ever committed to spending my entire life with him, but I will never play video g...

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Diary Of A Domme

Anyone who knows me, and by that I mean anyone who knows me sexually, is aware that there is no dominant side to me. I find absolutely no pleasure in hurting people either, and while there was once...

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Episode 2: Why the hell do you want to be a slave?

Hi! 

In our second episode we discuss why someone would want to be a slave, what that means, how to manage it and how to do it safely. 

Cliff Notes: 


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The Procurer

The cave that we took her to was very dark; too dark for her to be able to navigate without our support.
I could tell she didn't like it. Who would like it?
Depending on the vile creatures t...

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Podcast E24: Oof this political rant.

It came out of nowhere!

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Ugly.

*One drink.*
That's what I tell myself as I sit down on the bar stool. Just one, in the name of a more *normal* social life.  
All bars smell the same; sweetened smoke, old wood, new lea...

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Ancilla's Dirty Diary: "What The Fuck Do You Even Call This Fetish?" (26/11/21)

25 November 2021

He punched a dildo inside me. I don't know how else to put that. The dildo, god I hate that word, was inside me and he was fucking me with it as if it were a...

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The Two Men In My Bed.


When he came back into the room, I was sitting on the edge of the bed, keeled over, and clutching my abdomen. He walked past me, without a word, and pulled off the grey towel that was wrapped a...

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Ancilla's Dirty Diary: "I'm Not Sure I Want To find Out Why. (24/11/21)

24 November 2021

You ever feel like you cannot identify your own intentions? I guess that's not as possible as I would like to think it is, and it is more likely that I don't...

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Podcast E23: Community Leaders, fuck-ups and a tiny bit of advice.

Hello! 

I feel like this is the best episode I have ever done. It's honest, it's unpredictable but informative. 

Enjoy! 

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Her Special Friend.

Trigger Warning:  Age *Play* (or something else disturbing enough to be warned against).

......

She removes her slippers before she cracks the door open. She holds her breath and...

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Episode 1: Why The Hell Do You Like Rape Play?

Hello! 

I've started a new public audio-series called: "Why The Hell Do You Like That?" 

It's a series where in each episode I take a fetish and discuss it from various perspe...

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Special.

“You’re not like other girls,” he says, “I see something special in you.”

Even though a part of me knew that he probably says that to all women, I like hearing it. No one had ever ...

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I Am Not A Woman in his Bed.


I had sex with my clothes still on me. I feel like I haven't done that it in a long time. They weren't even nice or sexy clothes, but they were warm. Suddenly, it's cold and foggy. I got...

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The Animal.

It's dark outside. It has to be because the clock says it's well past nine. It doesn't matter though. It doesn't matter that the sun comes up every morning and children scurry away to school with g...

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The Fear of A Needle.

"I'm scared," I admitted, the moment the smell of rubbing alcohol started to waft through the air.

I find it is best to admit fear. When I was younger I used to think it makes me more inter...

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Audio Story: Ruins of Pain.


As yet unscarred. Mostly. Unbroken. Mostly. His fingers in my heart and his breath on my soul. Me living, six feet under the ground and me dying, six feet above it. 


<...

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Podcast E22: How my husband got the most drunk he has ever been.

This is really just one story. I don't know I managed to take forty minutes to tell it. Well, find out how. 

Haha.

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