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Podcast E83: Can Everything Be Pretty Always?

Is there any space or sphere in the world that values the product more than the packaging anymore?

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The Power Exchange Sextbook: Drop

I am writing a book on power-exchange. I will post each chapter as I finish it on here and then the full compiled book as well. This chapter is about drop, as it impacts both tops and bottoms. The ...

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Podcast E82: 10 Mistakes You May Be Making As Parents.

I know, I know. This is not the right place for this post, people don't come on here for parenting advice (bla, bla) but I can't help but talk about everything in the world and in my life? And I sw...

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The Relatioship HighCast: Emotional Sadomasochism in Relationships.

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Owning My Time.

There was a time when I was completely unable to say no to anyone who wanted to play with me. Whenever someone says something like that, we automatically assume it is because of fear of repercussio...

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The Relationship HighCast: Navigating Cultural Differences in Relationships.

Let's navigate!

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Memoirs of Madness

Memoirs of Madness is the second volume of my erotic novel "Vignettes of Violence". It is an erotic autobiography of the power exchange relationship between my partner and I. This volume spans the ...

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Podcast E81: My Monogamous Sisters Ask Me Questions About Polyamory.

What if instead of engaging in the mono versus poly debate, I let a couple of intelligent, open-minded, thoughtful monogamous women ask me all their questions about polyamory and we tried to unders...

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Naked In My Desire For You.

They catch us in a moment of stolen privacy. Our eyes are locked, we whisper to each other, and every few seconds, you kiss my mouth, and smile at me. Your fingers press into my spine and as I watc...

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What does it mean to be dominant?

Years ago, at a play-party, there was a couple I didn’t previously know who showed up together. It was the kind of party where everyone had their role declared so before they came inside a...

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Home is where I suffer for you.

Sometimes in the midst of an adrenaline storm, when you’re on your knees and every part of your body feels like it has been assaulted, you catch a glimpse of yourself in a reflective surface ...

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Podcast E80: Moving is fun?

Moving is fun, and horrid, and surprise surprise, I also managed to find the sexism in it.

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A Quick Note To My Patrons

Hello all!

Thank you for your continued support of my work. I just wanted to let everyone know that I am currently in the process of moving and simultaneously attempting to meet a collosal d...

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Prolonged Play and Aftercare.

Within power-exchange relationships, we generally talk of two approaches to interplay—scene-based and dynamic-based—but I find it a bit difficult to explain what I really like within the...

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Podcast E79: Weaponised Incompetence.

Weaponised incompetence is the process of pretending or relying on strategic incompetence or ineptitude in order to get out of tasks, labour or other forms of work, it most commonly arises at the w...

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Podcast Series: Predators Pt 4(b): How does loving a predator impact you?

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Podcast Series: Predators Pt 4(a): Why does one fall in love with a predator?

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Podcast Series: Predators Pt 3: How do predators get away with it?

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Podcast Series: Predators Pt 2: How do predators choose victims?

This is a multi-part series assessing predators and their impacts.

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Podcast Series: Predators Pt 1: How do they impact you?

This is a series of episodes about predators, victimisation, trauma, assault, recovery and everything that encompasses.

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The Relationship HighCast: Compatibility!

An exclusive episode of TRH, just for my patrons!

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Sex and Sanskar: Where do you go to fuck?

We were easing into it, his hands were around my throat and I was gazing into his eyes, when a loud, persistent banging on the door distracted us. The intruder was pounding so hard at the wood, itâ...

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This is what it means.

He hands me the scarf and I put it around my eyes myself. It’s very soft and light, but it blocks my vision completely as I knot it behind my head. I remember buying the scarf, four of them—blu...

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The Bad Slave.

He fucks my mouth with one and my cunt with the other. With nine-inches of glass, he hurts my cunt so I want to scream, the wider I open my mouth to scream, the deeper into my throat he pushes what...

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Podcast E77: The Industry of Commercialised Sexuality

...and why it's awesome in ways you didn't even think.

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The School of Fuck.

There was an image I had in my head. In it, I was on stage, fresh-as-dew, dressed like a professional, moving around briskly and with just enough animation to be an engaging instructor. Instead, I ...

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Podcast E76: 10 Mistakes You Might Be Making As An Edge Player

Edge play has a lot of room for mistakes, could you be making one of these mistakes?

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Podcast E75: The Ethics of Fantasy.

What is it okay to think about, anyway?

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We Still Burn Witches At The Stake.

My mother is insecure about her intelligence. I understand why. For most of her young life, she was considered the vain one in her family, and once she married my father, she married ...

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The Price of His Love.

Would I be easier to manoeuvre, if I were smaller?

I wonder,

as his foot makes its way under the desk,

and attempts to place itself between my legs.

My knees jam against t...

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