black out days
Have had this on repeat recently. Another that I’ve known forever but for some reason recently it just landed fully. This mix fucking goesssss
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Black Out Days (Fut...
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honest
We never did get to have that talk
Add it to the list of things you said to me that I have to pretend don’t matter
I swear I don’t need you
I didn’t find salvation and th...
2025-01-15 04:14:43 +0000 UTC View Poststicky
I’ve been wearing the same lipstick for 10 years
Wearing the same perfume for close to 20
My hair gets tied up in a bun with the same twists and turns every time
I still chew the...
puppet
I’ve learned that there is power in accepting you are powerless in a situation
It’s helpful to know you are helpless
Trying to be in control makes me feel controlled
Not in ...
2025-01-08 16:51:52 +0000 UTC View Posthome
The tshirt I wore the last time I saw you had been in my drawer since
Until 2 weeks ago
I had surgery and I wore it there
It made me feel strong
Because you think I a...
a note
just wanted to say I’m sorry for being inactive on here. I have been having a really hard time and it’s been difficult to access the part of me that is okay with being seen in this way. thanks ...
2024-10-12 17:09:50 +0000 UTC View Postlost
You said we lost each other in translation
It might be the saddest thing anyone has ever said to me
It wouldn’t be if it weren’t true
You said things can always be re...
destruction
The container I once resided in suddenly feels too vast to feel the sides and top and bottom
I’ve realized you have broken it completely
Created space for parts of me that were hidde...
are we having fun yet
You don’t address me directly
At least not in front of me
It’s always in the third person
It’s telling
In a way that you telling me wouldn’t be
...
don’t
What’s the opposite of placation
Of platitudes or acquiescence
Of patronization
Appeasement
Niceties
Pacification
That is what I want
Disturb me 2024-09-09 21:20:40 +0000 UTC View Post
sacred mask
Doing my makeup is a sacred act. I started when I was 8 years old, something most people probably can’t say. Most of the dance moms did their daughters’ stage makeup before dress rehearsals and...
2024-09-02 21:02:53 +0000 UTC View Post
in the tub with you
I am in the shower at 1am
I am laying down in the tub letting the water cascade down and hit my body and fall away
Looking up at the tiled ceiling and walls
It feels piti...
reckoning
You told me I’m dangerous
In a moment when that was true
But I think it’s actually because I make you feel safe
Entertain the things about you that you hate
...
wanted this one to stand on its own <3
shot on fujifilm x100vi
2024-08-16 13:25:09 +0000 UTC View Postguilty
I feel guilty for things I shouldn’t feel guilty for
I don’t feel guilty for things I should
I think maybe I’m a bad person
In the body of someone good
summer in the park
bryant park, new york city — shot on 35mm film
2024-08-11 12:30:35 +0000 UTC View Postentombed
One of my favorite Deftones songs, hard to put into more words than that.
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Entombed — Deftones
Koi No Yokan, 2012
2024-08-06 14:21:04 +0000 UTC
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8.2.24
I wore my hair in a half up bun today
It’s one of the things I like most about having a shorter haircut than normal
That doesn’t make sense without more context
I don’t feel ...
sabrina (i am a party)
This has been one of my top songs of the past few years. Fred again is altogether amazing but this one is on a different level for me. I recommend listening to the song but also checking out the fu...
2024-08-01 22:29:37 +0000 UTC View Post