you know sometimes
i just wanted to know who i am
who i really like
who i wanted to be or planned to be
and sometimes
you forgot what you going through
you lost yourself, your path and yourself and everything
personal artworks especially drawing myself as sona
makes me finding myself again, reassuring yes. i'm this type or person thingy.
It always means a lot. and its such a small but big happiness finding who am i.
colors, designs, likes putting in the sona and expressing it , such a delightful ever always.
I always have wonders at moon, star, cosmos, constellations
its wonderful. feels free, but also terrifying and unknowing.
I know i kinda update and change a lot about my sona
But that's who i am
and i'm in the road finding myself too and that's why its keep changing
it would be changing again and again until i find that myself as sona, aperfectly accepting it
who knows this is only another step for the finding truly who am i
but at least i know i'm slowing coming toward that. me.
its not only hard and takes long to get far away.
Its takes a lot to get to myself either.
about the brush i tried / it was Gouache brush
i always wanted to try something for painting or other analog materials , and it was really fun. Painting is just geniunely fun. and feels happy.