SugarBearNSFW

Where I`ve been..

Added 2024-10-28 15:57:53 +0000 UTC

First off I would like to say, Im okay.

I know where im going and while its not the best or safest area. Ill have some what of a roof over my head.

Now... Whats going on.

In February I left a very fucking toxic environment with a landlord/boss who was exploiting me and my talents. I only found out later that this women was not only RACIST narcissist, but also a scammer. She left out crucial details about the property that she only told me about AFTER I had signed the lease including an on going rat issue and A MURDER THAT HAPPENED ON THE PROPERTY JUST A FEW WEEKS PRIOR. She also withheld payment and proper communication when switching my payment route for rent which lead to her saying I owed her more than I did..

I wish I could explain to you how fucked my mental was in that situation but Ill be honestly I dont remember too much due to everything that happen..

When I decided to break my lease It was smooth thankfully and i was able to move in with some family that I thought would understand my situation and give me time to breath think and come up with a plan.

I was wrong.

For the past 9 months I`ve been walking on eggshells and I didnt even know it. The couple who the home belonged to hadn't been paying rent for god knows how long and have been delegating their money to other things... like going to Mexico for example..

Due to the negligence of others... yet again... Im being caught in a fucking eviction...

Im gonna be honest... my mental has been scary. my will to keep going has been dwindling and I dont things getting better in my life at all. I see no silver lining, I dont see shit getting better, I see nothing..

But Im still here..

I say all this to say, thats where I`ve been, aside from kinktober posting Ive been packing and preparing myself to yet again haul all my fucking shit back into a storage unit while I sit on my ass and stare at the ceiling for a little while...

Ill still be posting after I leave but its gonna be a minute...Im completely worn down and exhausted with life... and i dont know how to remedy that.. but ill be back to posting soon enough..

Thanks you guys❤️