EARLY ACCESS | Homunculus / Trickle (Original MV)

I have updated the audio- this is the FINAL PRODUCT! WOOOO!!!

「I'm lower than the dirt...」

Music/Arrangement/Composition: Tikaal 

MV: Venz Music/Lyrics/Vocals/

Mix: Trickle

Homunculus is a song about endlessly rebuilding oneself until they are "good enough"- never satisfied with the result.

This song is inspired by the Gospel of the Bible- that you can not be good enough to earn salvation, for at our human core we are sinners against God. 

What Homunculus leaves out, though, is that forgiveness of our sins is a free gift from the Lord for those who call upon the Lord in repentance. 

Particularly these two verses:
..."for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified by his grace as a gift, through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus, whom God put forward as a propitiation by his blood, to be received by faith. This was to show God's righteousness, because in his divine forbearance he had passed over former sins. It was to show his righteousness at the present time, so that he might be just and the justifier of the one who has faith in Jesus." (Romans 3:23-26)

&

"For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast.(Ephesians 2:8-9)

These passages teach that we are all sinners, but that God loves us enough to die for us through Christ so that we may have eternal life, freely as a gift ("For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord." (Romans 6:23) ).

I thought it was beautiful inspiration for a song so ugly.
I hope that you enjoy.
-Trickle
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Lyrics:

I realized in my last life
That I hate the light
So I keep running
And running
I'm trying to hide
From everything that's inside
This heart that I've tried
To erase and wash away all the shame

Scared to death of what's within
There's a bleeding kind of beating, deep beneath the skin
Feel it rattle, ravage- all my sin
Hear it scream behind my chest again

No alchemy can give me
What I wish I could be
So I'll try a different body


Just a dash of this and that,
A touch of blood, and add some mud
My wishes, fears, and painful tears
I wonder when I'll have enough

No form of love can give me what I wish I could be
I pray just change me


I'm broken, torn, and tattered
I'll never be full again
I'll close my eyes and shatter
My heart, rebuild from the start

Disgusting
Even if I somehow
Find a way to feel alive, I....

Realized in my last life
That I hate the light
So I keep running
And running
I'm trying to hide
From everything that's inside
This heart that I've tried
To erase and wash away all the shame
To erase and wash away all the shame

Stuck in the mud in my mind,
If I clean up, I swear that I'd shine
I am confined
To what is inside
Eating away at the thoughts that I'm trying to hide

And I'm sick of all this wondering if I even deserve to live
I think it's best I rip
These feelings out with the rest of it


The breath of life was my demise,
I'm cursed until the day I die
Perhaps a better set of eyes
Will blind me from this sin of mine
I've been forsaken, I'm breakin', can't take it again

So take from me my mind and let me be

I'm lower than the dirt,
A worthless Homunculus

Sick of this!
Even if I somehow
Find a way to feel alive, I....

Realized in my last life
That I hate the light
So I keep running
And running
I'm trying to hide
From everything that's inside
This heart that I've tried
To erase and wash away all the shame
To erase and wash away all the shame

Toil all day, till this rotten clay,
Water and blood just aren't enough
To fill my heart up

Over and over, I try to reshape
Crying in shame as I take the pain out
Maybe
That can change me
That can save me

I'm broken, torn, and tattered
I'll never be full again
I'll close my eyes and shatter
My heart, rebuild from the start

Disgusting!
Even if I somehow
Find a way to feel alive, I....

Realized in my last life
That I hate the light
So I keep running
And running
I'm trying to hide
So maybe in my next life,
I'll finally find
Find a way to wash away all the shame
To erase and wash away all the shame