XaydLove

Soooooo

I don't know why it took me so long to think of this but I'll be posting the sfw cosplays here at the Blessings tier 💛

We got a backlog of those 😂

In other news - I'm still stru...

(over)whelm

Hey y'all

School has been kicking my entire ass lately. I'm behind. In pretty much everything. To the point where I'm reconsidering my life choices.

I'll be ok. I'm sure of it. But ri...

found a hidden track

i sang this for my uncle's funeral back in 2020. it was virtual & i couldn't attend. my aunt asked me to record a few songs for them to play during it. it was the easiest and hardest recording ...

ok so

part of the EP is up.
i posted 6 of the tracks that can be found here on soundcloud.
i have another 6 posting in a month or so...

my goal is to have at least one of my songs complete ...

Head Space

You know that clean slate feeling you get when you blow your nose after one of those goood deeeep ugly cries? That's the caliber of reset I need.

I feel so tired and sad and heavy and stuck ...

Hom

Ok I'm back. I'm very tired but I have an announcement.

Patreon rolled out video embeds for posts but only for accts who don't have nsfw content.

I haven't been doing many saucy draw...

This JUST happened.

I finally made it to Buc-ee's. It was massive. There were way too many people! It was heards of livestock going in every direction.

They had all kindsa stuff. I didn't take photos bc there ...

N E W S !!

Okay 

so one of the secret surprises that I forgot to follow up on? doing it now lol

I started making the journals! Starting with the Aquatic Musicians series, the Amadeus design ...

bucket uh MOO

My sister commissioned me to crochet her a cow print bucket hat. It's coming along...

Might gotta make me one—🤭

I'll post what it looks like when i finish~

impermanence

while i was back in SC...

so i went back to SC for work and family stuff. My friend Bishop flew in to attend the show (more on that some day) and we drove around town, just because i hadn't ...

Update: I don't know

I've been wanting to tell y'all about all my adventures. I don't know where or how to start. What to even say. It's kinda overwhelming, the longer i sit and try to figure it out.

I've been ...

Drawing exercise 7&8

Drew myself since i haven't done that in a while. I feel so lost.

May..

Brains been real scribbly lately..

been pretty stormy lately

Not everyone likes storm clouds. But i think I'll start taking and sharing them anyway. Every day is not pretty n sunny. Sometimes it's pretty and grey. There are also day where it's just blue. And...

Drawing exercise....6

I haven't been posting these daily. Or doing them as daily as I'd like. But it's ok. I can't do everything every day....

busy busy

it's been a busy couple of weeks. I'm currently doing a cosplayathon with my best friend, ThiccSparkleButt on twitch to celebrate our stream anniversaries & her birthday. Tomorrow's the last da...

drawing exercises pt 2

there are three now. imma paint em.

drawing exercises

subjects may be in various states of undress so I'll classify them as such.

i feel like i can't draw anymore so I'm doing exercises on paper. we got lady enjoying a beverage. and another lay...

existence

i'm hungry

but i don't want to chew anything



Oh. Also, i wrote a song last week but I'm not fully sure how it sounds yet. It's based on Donna Summer's "Love To Love You Baby" but sang from Rali...

weekend

i was in SC for work. another show, my fav jazz artist René Marie. it was wonderful seeing her again. shout out to Dokta_J for coming out and shenaniganin with me all weekend. ♡

travelin (long post)

so i was gifted a weekend experience in DC.

last weekend i experienced the experience and lemme tell ya it was a fantastic time and i didn't wanna leave! it was my first time flying since J...

dc

i'm havin a really fantastic time

keep rollin

i did a lot of travel for work the past few days. I'm real tired but i can't rest yet.

let's see how long I'll continue doing these shows.

(til eternity maybe??)

I hope you hav...

grief

the sky is a bit grey today
has been for a while
i won't see the sun again
until i see you smile

Yesterday

words are hard right now

bright

I've been trying to write a poem but it keeps splintering off into other thoughts and moments and so i end up starting 3 - 5 more and just leaving them. Half formed ideas, incomplete bars, bare bon...

shaaa✨~

♡

pssst~♡

hey.
shh.
comere.

i found something really old and potentially cool... even if a bit cheesy. it's a whole ass secret.

i'm leaving the real explanation as a problem for Future...

Adventures!

Last month, my Fraunt Reese visited for work and we went to the Center for Puppetry Arts. It was sooooo cool. Here are just a few photos.

There were puppets from all over the world and diffe...